I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Forty-Two 사십이

~ Alyssa ~

Minutes, songs and tears pass. I listen to a lot of songs. Each song tells a different story, but most of these stories feel so close to my heart. While one describes betrayal, the other describes a broken heart and another describes anger and hate. Which is the state I am in right now. After crying my eyes out for a solid half hour, the angry songs speak to me right now. 

You walked away from me baby
I would've never done the same
You made me feel like our love was not real
You threw it all away...

As the anger from the song, flows through my veins. I start to clean the house. It might not be the best decision to clean a house while feeling angry, but it is a lot better than feeling sad.

Still remember a time when you felt like home
You and me up against the great unknown
You were my life, now you're out of my life
Yeah, I guess that's life...

The lyrics speak to me like they are made for me. Because that's what it felt like. It was always him and me against the great unknown, but not anymore... Now him, me and the great unknown are three separated pieces in this world. And all the three pieces are fighting each other. Not one piece helping the other. It's all the pieces for themselves...

As I put the last plate in the dishwasher, I hear a soft knock on the door. I wonder who that could be and go to the front door, but the door already opens and Taehyung appears from behind the door. He looks up at me and enters the house. "Hey..." He says. I scare. I didn't expect to see him. "H-Hey," I stutter, "W-What are you doing here?" He looks a little uncomfortable and puts his hands in the pockets of his pants. "Last time I checked this was still my house," he softly says, making the anger in my veins breaking through my insecure stuttering.

"Take what you want and go! Take it, no reason for me to hold on. Look in my eyes, I'm letting go." The song 'Take What You Want' by One Ok Rock and 5 Seconds Of Summer still blasts through the speakers. I hurry to my phone and quickly pause the music. It is probably not the best idea to have this music on while he and I are here together...

Taehyung follows me into the kitchen and looks around like he hasn't been here in ages. I stay quiet and watch his eyes scan the entire house before they meet mine. "How are you?" He asks. Just that single question awakes a fire inside of me. He wants to know how I am doing? After breaking my heart, turning my entire life upside down and leaving me, he wants to know how I am doing? Is 'fucking amazing' a good answer?

Instead of answering him, I cross my arms and stare at him. "Why are you here, Taehyung?" I ask him, "Are you really here continue the fight? Do you want us to yell at each other again? Or do you just want to add a bit of oil to the fire and do some extra damage by showing up here again?" I have no mercy for him anymore. After what he has done to me, I feel no need to be kind to him. I only feel the need to yell at him. Which is also thanks to all the songs I've been listening.

Taehyung's look changes. He looks... hurt? "Do you really think that badly of me?" He asks me. I groan and roll my eyes. "I feel like I don't even know you anymore. So yeah, you could be capable of anything," I tell him. He looks away from me, like he is really hurt and maybe even heart broken. Well, he is not the only one.

"You do know me. You know me better than anyone," he says without meeting my eyes. I sigh annoyed, "Is that why you're here? To tell me that?" Taehyung looks up to me and shakes his head. "No, I am genuinely wondering how you're doing," he says. As I look into his eyes, I feel my anger sink into the background. The anger is still here, trust me, but it makes room for worry, concern and maybe a little sympathy to take the front of my emotions.

Before I can ask him what he means or why he would be so interested in how I am doing - while he must know I am not doing well after what he did - he grabs his phone out of his pocket. We both stay completely silent as he clicks on a few things on his phone. With one last, short look at me, he presses play on something and puts his phone on the table close to us.

"Taehyung? Hi, it's me, Alyssa. Just in case you forgot my name already," I hear myself say. I immediately realize what this is. This is a voice mail I made for him... I get a tiny flashback of sitting in the bathroom, holding my phone and a bottle of Soju. I remember sitting on the floor, looking for his contacts in my phone and calling him. I also remember he never answered. So after the forth or fifth call I spoke to his voice mail... I have no idea what I said, but I am afraid I am about to find out...

"You are not answering my calls, so I bet you have more important stuff to do... Well, I guess we both know I am not on your list of 'important stuff' anymore. So I guess you are with her now, aren't you? She is on the top of that list, am I right? Right on the spot where I was... So did you propose to her yet?" My past self slurs the words, letting us both know I've had a lot of alcohol before I started calling. "I bet that ring would look absolutely amazing on her!" I hear how I take a sip of my drink before continuing.

"Am I invited to the wedding? I really hope so, because I already know what to say in my speech. I will start with thanking everyone for coming to your second wedding, because that is very important. Then I will tell everyone the beautiful story of how you two met. How you two were inseparable from the day you met, even though you had a damn wife. But who cares, right? Now you have a new wife! Whoohoo!"

I put my hands on my face to hide myself. Did I really say all of this? I know I wanted to say some things to Taehyung, but I didn't want him to actually hear it...

"Will you thank me at your wedding? Because let's be real, I was the one who brought you two together. If I didn't allow you two to have these dance lessons, you and her might have never happened! So yes, I think I should get some credits..." I hear how I take a few sips from my drink again. It stays quiet for a few seconds. I pray that this was the end of it, but then I hear my own, drunk voice again.

"Maybe her and I should have a little talk. Then I can tell her what kind of husband you are. You know, how she should keep you away from any other female? Who knows, your third wife could be around the corner! Yes, she should be aware of what you're capable of. Like how you will even forget about your own child if you're with another woman. Or did you only do that for her? Then she doesn't have to be so scared. Then it was just me... Just me who you betrayed... Just me who got her heart broken..." It stays silent again, but not for too long.

"Do you tell her she is the one? Just like you told me? Or is she actually the one for you? Was I just an obstacle? But then why did you write these songs about me? Or did you write them for her? No, you didn't know her back then..." I scare a little when I hear a knock through the voice mail. "Ali?! Are you in the bathroom?" I here Yoongi ask. "Yes! I am speaking to Taehyung, give me a moment," my past self slurs back to Yoongi. "To Taehyung?! Ali, open the door right now!" Yoongi tells me. "No, I am preparing my wedding speech!"

"As I was saying, mister Kim. I hope to see your wedding invitation soon. Because then I at least know that this hurt isn't for nothing. Even though it will hurt way more to see you get married to her... At least I know you are happy. Not that I will ever be happy, because you've ruined that, so I at least deserve a speech and some songs on your wedding... Like 'Fuck You' or 'Traitor'. Yes, I can't wait to sing these songs... But just don't play 'I Won't Give Up' on your wedding. There is no need to lie to your wife again... Okay bye now!" I hear a beep, telling me the voice mail finally ended.