A Glimpse at my Emotions

2022.5?

2022-07-07, 10:35 AM 

Wow. Okay. Hold up, how have I only just realized that we're halfway into 2022? Time really flew this year. Particularly when you're busy in your cybersecurity boot camp and have no idea what day it is anymore.

xD

But I did pass with an A average! And I did meet up with a few of my classmates two weeks ago at a little pub in downtown Toronto. They were all wonderful people to be around--and hey, given that we don't usually have the time to chat during class time, it's a good time to reach out to them in person and have some of the downtime before the weekend. I had to drive from Richmond Hill right after teaching, took about an hour's drive, but it went alright at least.

Lately I've been applying for jobs left and right following my cybersecurity boot camp, and I just landed an interview for the Junior IT Analyst job at a company close by downtown Toronto. It's going down next week too, so crossing my fingers for all the good luck I can get!

I've faced a few frustrations while teaching recently, particularly with one student whom I'm supposed to be helping. Recently, though, I feel like she's taking advantage of me and what I can do. I could expand, but I'm feeling angry again just thinking about it. I've complained to my boss about it already...I hope the second time would reinforce something for the student.

And if anyone's wondering about my love life...well. There were times when I was scared it would snap because of how much negativity was plaguing my life, and he didn't deserve to hear it all the time from me. But he promised he would never leave, and sometimes I feel like I don't deserve a guy like him. Still, though, I'm really happy he's still here, being my support system in all this chaos. I know I have a lot to owe him. I just hope we can hold out before the summer is over and we'll be together for a year :) <3

Family's fallout is bad. I fear there's no room for repair at all as long as we're all at odds with each other. At least we're all sort of seeing things rationally now after I accidentally scraped the tire of the car I was driving yesterday, but who knows what would happen afterwards. No, I'm not even willing to think about it right now, either. Things have become so bad that not only do I feel like I've been blatantly ignored, but my voice and mindset has become so hostile I don't even want to stay here anymore.

:(

I'll find a way though. I have friends to back up on, so I think I'll be okay.

Anyway, that's it from me for now. I hope everyone's doing well otherwise.