A Glimpse at my Emotions

happy (belated) new year

2019-01-02, 10:01 AM

Happy new year everyone. Er, well, I mean, happy belated new year. Gee, thanks, stupid headache which never went away even after I slept for 11 hours last night. It's getting better though. Just need to spend less time away from my computer and phone which is what I'm trying to do.

I'm not a fan of making new year's resolutions. I've tried making them, but to be fair, the situation around me never changes no matter what I write. For proof, I've written "don't fight with parents" and yet the things they can say triggers every unpleasant emotion within so that's kind of shot. I guess the more realistic we are, the better off we'd be in terms of actually achieving something awesome this year.

So I'll start with saying I'm going to try not to act like a total jerk this year. 2018 was full of fights and low moments and a break-up that lead me to put a complete stop to dating. It was full of me worrying my butt off about my future and my reputation as a student, and it lead me to counselling services more than once. And it also lead to more than one fight with my parents and sister. I also cut off many friendships and many opportunities to make friends last year. So here's to just hoping I don't let my temper get the better of me.

Last year also brought through a couple breakthroughs--I made a lot of new friends who love Hogwarts Mystery, Pokemon GO, and music in general. Being nominated for concertmaster for the second time in my university career for the orchestra at school in the summer was probably the main highlight of last year, besides the 4 months I spent in China that really opened my eyes to something beyond what I was used to and the trip to Rome and Greece last summer with my family. Then late last month I found my calling with a film school that's in Vancouver--and I'm not sure about moving there just yet, but it's something I'm seriously considering, all family opinions aside. My second resolution would be to get into that school. I'm not sure when that would happen, but it would.

My last resolution would be to graduate from this school and get the heck out. I'm kind of dying in this geography major I'm pursuing, and it's best I get it out of the way, right now, before my family starts getting antsy about it.

And then there's also stop procrastinating on stories on Wattpad or violin practice, but those are kind of beyond my control at the moment...

Yeah.

I'm gonna shut up before my mom screams at me to practice violin again.