A Glimpse at my Emotions

betrayed...?

2018-07-09, 9:53 PM

How quickly did word even spread around? I don't know how it happened, but now that it happened, I have never felt more scared in my life.

So most of you guys know, I'm stressed about a lot of things. I wanted to call a hiatus from a lot of social networks, and now it's suddenly shown in my initiative and everything. I faked sick so many times today just to avoid talking to people and getting out of class.

I must have some kind of anxiety attack or streak or something. The mere thought of school now makes me paranoid and frozen. I even get nightmares over everything that I haven't done that I should have done before. And now with every night falling, I feel restless, and my stomach hurts worse, and everything just seems to be crashing down on me.

And I don't know if I should talk to anyone. I do, but I don't know how they'll react to my parents constantly arguing with me, and me lying to them in return; or my academics suffering a majorly huge plunge, and me having to face serious consequences if my parents found out; or really just anything that's on my mind. 

I'm scared of people judging me. I'm scared of people telling me that I can't do this. I'm scared of listening to someone else and then have my parents diss them because they all think I'm fin

I don't know how everyone knows, but now they do. How would they think of me?