A Glimpse at my Emotions

can't take this anymore

2018-06-30, 11:47 AM

I can't do this anymore. I can't keep myself upright anymore when everything is crashing down on me--the truth that I'm too scared to face, the parents who'll get mad if I screw one little thing up.

The whole ordeal just makes me want to scream, and yet I know I can't or else my parents would condemn me for acting like a complete baby. I want to cry, but I'm scared my parents would think it's a waste of time. I want to run away, but I know the truth would chase me one way or another. I just want everything to stop.

If I haven't been "threatened" by my school to kick me out (and my average right now is just 3% below expectations) and if my parents haven't been yelling at me for being the imperfect child I am right now, I wouldn't be here crying and screaming on the inside.

As a result, I will be off of Wattpad for a little while. I will be uninstalling the app, but I'll still keep in touch on my browser. That being said, there will be NO UPDATES on any of my books whatsoever for an undetermined period of time.

It breaks my heart to do this, but I've been putting things off for too long in real life, and it's about time I started getting back into that swing or else my entire life as my parents see it would be jeopardized.

Thanks for understanding.

~fiery-hallows