2018-4-11, 10:23 AM
I can't believe I'd say this, but if I have to be honest, I feel like Evan Hansen.
You may think it's strange but to be all honest, what I have been doing lately hasn't been helping me gain anything but guilt. I've talked shit about people because I was scared. I felt isolated for so long that it lead me to believe that everyone is a liar. No one cares for me; is that true? Or have I shut them out every time they tried to reach out to me?
I've manipulated people, and I've manipulated myself. I ended up believing in my own lies, to the point where I cannot remember anything that was real or true.
And let's face it. We all want to save face. We don't want anyone to think that we are bad. But lying to people won't make anything better. And now I just feel bad about so many things. I'd lose a lot of support if I told people the truth now. It's gone too far.
I'm basically Evan Hansen. Broken on the inside, trying to find my happiness but failing to. Even if I did, it came at a price--a terrible one.
I can't cope with this anymore. Maybe it'd be better if I just disappeared. Would anyone even notice if I did?
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