My princess to the Black Widow Mafia

Chapter 127. Cry it out instead

Aria POV
"Pretty girls like you are too precious to cry so stop crying princess." He kissed my tears away as I cried in his arms. "I-it h-hurts d-daddy." I cried to him.

"What hurts?" He asked me confused. "M-my h-heart h-hurts." I sobbed uncontrollably. I couldn't handle these nightmares anymore they felt like torture a fear that I couldn't get over.

I felt disappointed in myself at the same time for letting Elizabeth and Andrew haunt me in my own head for so many years.

I couldn't rest without them hurting me and making me relive through the torture and trauma they caused me. It was all in my conscious I knew that very well but it felt so real and vivid that it scared the life out of me like it did in reality.

No doctor could heal me from this torture this was something I was going to have to suffer with for the rest of my life and that hurt me more than anything.

"I c-can't t-take t-this p-pain a-anymore I-it's t-too s-scary I r-rather k-kill m-myself t-than l-live t-through t-these n-nightmares a-again." He nodded his head disagreeing with my thoughts.

"No you will not be selfish like that Aria." He said while making me look up into his eyes with my teary eyes.

"You have no choice but to live through that pain I can hold you and wipe away all your tears for you but what you won't be doing is hurting yourself." He said with authority in his voice.

"We have five fucking kids together Aria. I'm not the only one that needs you they will need you too." He reminded me making me realize how stupid and selfish it was of me to even think like that.

"I won't let anyone hurt you; you know that. These nightmares don't exist anymore your safe now, their gone and can't hurt you anymore." He told me as he wiped my tears away for me with his thumbs over and over again.

"I f-feel l-like I-I'm w-weak a-and t-too n-needy a-all t-the t-time. I a-always n-need s-something a-and y-you b-barely g-get t-to s-sleep b-because o-of m-me a-and m-my s-stupid n-nightmares." I explained to him through sobs.

"Have I ever complained about you being too needy or about not getting enough sleep?" He asked me genuinely. "N-no b-but-.." he cut me off not letting me finish my sentence.

"But nothing. If anything I love how fucking needy you are and I've made that clear plenty of times already." He responded.

"As for not getting enough sleep I really don't care because i love staying up all night taking care of you and distracting you from thinking about your nightmares."

"If I'm tired I know I can go take a nap that's not a problem for me. I knew what I was getting myself into when I first met you this is nothing new to me."

"Your not weak, or stupid your the strongest and most prettiest woman I've ever met so don't ever let me hear you call yourself weak or stupid." He told me clearly so I would understand.

"If you feel this way then obviously I've been doing something wrong or I haven't been showing you enough love and affection or giving you the attention you need."

He kissed my tears away making me close my eyes and take a deep breath to relax myself. A few more tears streamed down my face he quickly kissed them away for me.

While my eyes were still closed he kissed my eyelids softly before kissing my forehead while holding my head up to look at him.

"Your my precious girl, my beautiful princess." He said softly allowing me to hug him as long as I needed while whispering soft, sweet, loving words in my ear.

"Tell me whose my strong and precious little princess." He said while brushing away my hair from my face for me. "M-me d-daddy I-I'm y-your s-strong a-and p-precious l-little p-princess." I said just above a whisper.

He slipped his hand under my shirt running his fingertips along my spine to help me relax against him.

"Breath princess stop overthinking things I know your suffering and it hurts but there's so much I can do and so much you can do for yourself to get through this." He told me noticing how overwhelmed I was.

"I wish I could take away your bad dreams and replace them with all the things you love and what makes you happy but I can't but if there was a way I would have done it in a heartbeat for you just so you don't feel this pain anymore."

Tears welled up in my eyes again streaming slowly down my face. I hugged him tighter needing all his warmth and compassion to get me through my meltdown and to take away these dark emotions and thoughts going through my head.

I took a deep breathy breath to calm down but instead more tears spilled down my cheeks making it almost impossible to calm myself down again.

He stood up from our bed carrying me in his arms towards our bathroom taking me inside with him. He turned on the tub letting it run to fill up the tub while he started taking off my clothes for me.

He checked to see if the water was the perfect temperature for me with his hand before placing me inside the tub gently. My whole body relaxed in the warm water but my tears continued streaming down my cheeks.

"Stop thinking princess I'm here for you let me do all the thinking and stressing for you; you just relax for me and let me take care of you." He told me while wiping my tears away once again.

I grabbed his hand that he was using to wipe my tears away. I kissed the top of his hand softly thanking him for always wiping my tears away for me.

I reached up with my other hand touching his face with a weak smile on my face as I looked up at him. "Don't look at me like that Aria. It's okay to cry and be scared but you don't need to be afraid you have me."

He grabbed my hand kissing the top of my hand like I did to his. "Your so beautiful, even when you cry your beautiful but I hate seeing my little
princess cry." He complimented making me smile.

"There you go smile for me princess it's better for you to smile then for you to cry about something that will no longer happen it's in the past now and will never happen again to you i promise princess." He smiled reassuringly at me.

"I love you d-daddy s-so m-much." I told him as he leaned over the tub to kiss my lips softly. "I love you too princess." He said against my lips kissing them once more before pulling away.

"If you stop crying I'll take you to go get ice cream and to the bookstore so you can get that new book you've been wanting to read." He said convincingly making me smile even more.

"B-but w-will y-you r-read t-the b-book t-to m-me?" I asked him because I loved reading but I loved it more when he read the book to me while we laid in bed together.

"Whatever makes your precious little heart happy I'll do it just don't cry anymore and I'll do anything you ask me to." He said promisingly. I clapped my hands happily and excitedly.

"W-what t-time I-is I-it?" I asked him. He pulled out his phone from his pocket turning the phone towards me so I could see the time on it.

"You ready to come out?" I nodded my head reaching up with my arms so he could take me out the tub. "Y-you h-have t-to h-hurry d-daddy b-because t-the b-bookstore c-closes e-early t-today." I rushed him.

"Don't worry I'll get us there before they close." He reassured me. Whenever I woke up from a nightmare he always knew how to let me cry it out but in the end he always found a way to make me happy again and forget about all the horrible things I dreamed about.

There was no man like Caleb who could be so cold and ruthless yet so caring and nice at the same time it didn't make sense or fit his character.

Yet here he was taking care of me and sharing all his love and kindness with me and only me no one else would ever see this side of him except for the people closest to him especially me.