My princess to the Black Widow Mafia

Chapter 147. Suffering

Aria POV
I calmed down after a while as Jerry drove us to our temporary home. Ace and the quadruplets fell asleep during this long car ride. I didn't know exactly where we were going I just knew it was Matteo's mother's house Cassandra that Jerry was pulling into currently.

It was already dark outside by the time we got here. Jerry parked the car in front of a huge mansion with guards and security all around with huge rifles in their arms just like Caleb had at our house.

Cassandra was standing outside watching as I got out the car on my own without Jerry's help. I remembered her when Caleb took me to Italy for our anniversary and gifted me that huge stack of money.

"I'll take the kids to their rooms you just sit Aria." Jerry told me. I walked up the stairs to Cassandra shaking her hand with a very weak small smile greeting her the best I could even tho my heart was aching in pain for Caleb.

Instead of grabbing my hand to shake she pulled me into a hug. "Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this." She whispered to me as she hugged me making me cry.

"Everything will be okay just give it some time." She told me softly as I pulled away from her embrace. I didn't expect her to be so nice to me because every woman that I met that was much older than me always seemed to have something against me.

"Amber go help her find her room please." She told a much younger girl. "Go rest you look exhausted dear." She told me encouraging me to follow the young teenager upstairs.

I wiped my tears following her upstairs to one of their many guest bedrooms down a huge hallway. Jerry came out one of the rooms walking towards me. "They're all sleeping I'll be in the next room beside them to keep watch on all of you if you need me." Jerry explained to me.

I nodded my head not having the voice or energy to speak to him or anyone. Amber the young girl opened the door that was going to be mine temporarily for now.

I walked inside quietly while she closed the door for me giving me privacy. I took off my sweater placing it on the bed while taking my shoes off. I reached into my purse taking out Calebs shirt that smelled the most like him.

I took off my dress dressing myself in his shirt. I pulled the collar of his shirt up to my nose smelling it. Tears welled up in my eyes I missed him so much I didn't know how I was going to survive without him for a few months.

I got under the covers in the bed curling up into a ball as my tears came rushing down my face uncontrollably. Why after eight years of being together we had to be separated from each other?

All I wanted was to be in his arms and never let go of him. Why couldn't I just be happy and live my life to the fullest without worrying about anything?

Why was life so cruel to me? What did I do to deserve this much suffering and pain? All I wanted was to feel loved and be in the arms of the one man who gave me everything I wished and craved for.

Was that too much to ask for I mean I really do think I deserve happiness by now. I should be able to have Caleb all to myself and let him spoil me with all of his love and affection until I die that's all I wanted and needed.

My heart hurts so much right now and I didn't have Caleb here to hold me and whisper the sweetest words ever until my heart felt better.

My head was throbbing in pain from crying so much and Caleb wasn't here to take care of me like he always did. Our kids went to sleep without a goodnight kiss from him and they weren't going to get one for months.

They took my phone away I wasn't even allowed to contact him in any way. I couldn't see him and look at his handsome emotionless face anymore I couldn't listen to his deep dark voice anymore either.

They took everything away from me, my entire world was gone. I never even met those people or cared about them but they were preventing me from being with the love of my life, the father to my kids.

I've only spoke to Sage twice and I've been nothing but nice and kind to her but she betrayed not only Caleb but me and my kids.

I don't want be here I'm thankful that Matteo and his mother Cassandra are giving me a place to stay but I belong to Caleb I want to be with Caleb in his bed, and our home with our kids together.

I sobbed into the blanket uncontrollably gripping Caleb's shirt tightly against my chest. I felt my chest tighten as if I couldn't breath my tears making it harder for me to breath and control myself.

I felt sick to my stomach, my heart felt empty and ached in pain, my head throbbed in aching pain almost making me feel dizzy. I sat up on the bed struggling to breathe because of my unstoppable tears.

I got up walking carefully into the bathroom so I could wash my face with warm water. I turned on the bathroom lights walking towards the sink, I turned on the water splashing water onto my face using the small towel to wipe my face.

I looked up into the mirror my tears blurring my vision as I looked at myself. I looked horrible my eyes were swollen and puffy from crying so much, my nose and my cheeks a rosy red color.

I had the sudden urge to throw up I quickly went to the toilet throwing up everything in my stomach. I held my stomach as I threw up tears streaming down my face from the discomfort of throwing up so suddenly.

I grabbed some toilet paper wiping my mouth. My head began to spin and throb even more causing me to feel dizzy and even more exhausted.

I carefully walked out of the bathroom while clutching onto my weak stomach continuous tears rolling down my cheeks. I weakly walked towards the door walking out into the dark hallway to go downstairs to the kitchen.

I walked down each step slowly and carefully so I wouldn't fall and injure myself. I looked around when I got to the last step not knowing which way the kitchen was in this humongous house.

I decided to go on the left side of the house my intuition telling me that was where the kitchen was. I walked down the wide hallway walking straight into the kitchen just as I thought I was going to.

I went towards the fridge opening it to find a cold water bottle to drink to ease my dry lips and throat and my weak stomach at least a little. I grabbed a cold water bottle from the top shelf in the fridge opening it to drink it.

I sat down at one of the stools at the kitchen island drinking the water. I felt so weak and dizzy I couldn't stand on my feet anymore. The water wasn't helping much at all I felt like I was going to faint.

The kitchen light came on Cassandra walked inside with messy hair and a robe like she just woke up. I didn't have the energy to speak up to apologize to her for waking her up.

She walked towards me the closer she got to me her expression quickly changed into a worried one. "You look pale are you alright sweetheart?" She asked me concerned and worriedly placing her hand on my back as I looked at her.

"Mhmm." I responded to her nodding my head to reassure her that I was alright. "Are you sure I can call Aaron or Matteo for you if you'd like?" She asked me once more.

I nodded my head no getting up from my seat to leave back to my room. My head began to spin as soon as I stood up on my feet.

I stumbled back my eyes felt heavy and my vision blurred as I fell onto the kitchen floor completely blacking out. "Jerry!" Being the last thing I heard Cassandra scream before I collapsed and blacked out.

To be continued...