My princess to the Black Widow Mafia

Chapter 156. Lurking shadow

Aria POV
I heard movement coming from outside on my balcony I sat up on my bed turning on my lap that was on my nightstand so I could see better. I turned around on my bed to look out my window to see what that noise was.

I couldn't see anything that was outside because it was dark outside I could only see my own reflection through my window. I didn't want to go out there cause what if it was an animal or something.

I looked away from the window ignoring the noise I heard because it was no longer there nor did I hear it again. I pulled my covers up higher over myself getting ready to lay back down when I noticed something fall off my bed.

I sat up again crawling to edge of my bed to see what fell. I wiped my eyes to get rid of my tears that kept coming down my cheeks. I reached down on the floor to pick up what fell off my bed.

It felt soft and fluffy I picked it up off the floor to see what it was. My eyes widened when I saw my stuffed turtle Mr Tinkles I reached down on the floor again to check if my panda Mr Tree was there too.

I picked him up from the floor as well happiness filling my heart as I held both of my stuffed animals in my hands. But then confusion filled my mind as I looked at them.

How did they appear in here I could have sworn I left them at my old house. I got up from my bed quickly rushing over to the balcony door to go outside.

He was here and I didn't even notice. I walked out onto my balcony looking out into the darkness to see if he was still here but I couldn't see anything he wasn't here, he left, he left me again.

I looked around desperately to see if he was there. In my mind I knew he wasn't here that it was already too late but my heart was filled with hope that I would see him.

Tears filled my eyes as my eyes searched for him through the darkness of the night. I pinched my arms angrily at myself for not noticing sooner that he was here.

I turned around going back into my room locking my balcony door shut. I got back in my bed grabbing both of my stuffed animals hugging them tightly as I covered myself in my blanket crying into my pillow angrily at myself.

I missed him so much and I just missed the one opportunity to hug him and talk to him before he left me again. That's all I wanted and I just missed that moment.

Being without him makes me feel homesick, I felt like my entire heart was missing something, something that it craved to be filled with but only Caleb could make that empty feeling go away.

It's been almost a whole month since I've been away from him and you would think I would have gotten used to being apart from him or gotten over being away from him but it's only gotten worse for me.

I don't want to eat, get out of bed, or speak to anyone. I was starting to get really depressed. I longed for him to bring me back home to him and never let me go.

I needed him so bad to the point my heart felt shattered into pieces like it was losing its warmth and shine. Nothing was making me happy anymore not even my own kids could make me happy anymore I just wanted him.

God I felt so horrible for being so weak for my own children, they were suffering just as much as me and here I was crying every single night letting depression get the best of me instead of staying strong and making the most of my day with my kids.

It wasn't my kids fault for all of this happening yet I couldn't control the suffering and pain I was feeling. I couldn't control my tears anymore when I was around my kids.

Everything reminded me of Caleb, all the good memories he made with me and replaced all the bad memories with wholesome and beautiful moments reminisced in my head constantly throughout my day.