ZaDR Oneshots (Invader Zim)

Johnny's Gang PT2 (discontinued)

As Dib enjoying the tranquility of the empty park his thoughts on Johnny made him realize that he finds himself strangely drawn to Johnny's charms and anti-authoritarian behavior despite their previous opposing views. He feels connected to Johnny as if they are two sides of the same coin, bound by fate.

As Dib thinks about the Irken invader Zim he met four years ago, he feels deeply conflicted about the strong attraction he has towards Zim's enigmatic nature. He is deeply drawn to Zim's strength, determination and unapologetic boldness, despite the fact that being with Zim would put Dib's wellbeing and safety at risk.

Dib also regrettably feels attracted to Johnny, but not his appearance just his rebellious nature drawing Dib in and making Dib have complicated desires he can't comprehend. As Dib thinks of it, person he just likes the idea how Johnny can easily take the lead with confidence. Dib starts to worry about his submissive nature and how strong it is.

Dib tries to counter his submissive nature by imagining being dominant one in a relationship. He struggles to envision it. He has been conditioned to in a way to be submissive and societal expectations haven't helped him. There's layers of self doubt that plague his heart that refuse to let him go and let him be a true leader. Though the idea of leading is a scary and exciting concept for him.

Perhaps one reason for this is because Dib absolutely refuses to become something that his father wants him to be and wants to become something special by his own choices and his own path. As Dib is thinking about it he sees a very short boy with stunning green eyes, shaggy black hair with pink highlights, a black jacket and pants with white shirt walking through the park. It's Squee. Johnny's right hand guy and the quietest of the gang.

Squee catches Dib's gaze and gives him a quiet nod of acknowledgement as Dib admired the boy's striking appearance. Squee walks over to Dib with his hands in his pockets of his jacket.

"Do... do you mind if I practice dancing here? Or.... Would that bother you?" Squee softly asked his eyes darting around uncomfortably.

"No not at all. Feel free to dance here. It's a safe place." Dib gives the boy a soft gently smile.

Squee nodded, "Don't laugh." He cutely pouted and walks away to find a good spot to start dancing.

Dib felt weirdly connected to Squee's awkwardness and innocence as he found it endearing.

Squee moves his body with discipline and power. He is the true master of his body. Knowing how to twist, turn and move it to pull off each daring and bold flip or dance move. There's a strong determination on his eyes of a person, who will never give up no matter how many times they are knocked down. Dib can't help, but feel memorized and feel a deep respect and admiration forming for Squee.

Squee dances as if he's fighting shadows. As if the act of dance can help him destroy his own inner demons and show them, who's boss. It's truly inspiring. Dib wants to confront his own demons inside too. Without thinking Dib joins Squee in the dance and Squee carefully let's him and switches to synchronize with Dib. They are fighting their demons together.

As the dance ends, Squee looks at Dib thoughtfully, "You've been fighting a long and hard battle like me. It's okay to feel tired and worn down, but you can't ever let them take you down." Squee tells Dib in sudden wisdom.

Dib smiled feeling like he's finally not alone in his fight to face the demons around him or inside him.

"Demons come out in the middle of night they are trying to eat me. Time to fight or die and bleed. I won't go down. Don't care if you don't believe I'm dying. I'm fighting for my life. I see them haunting my dreams. The demons are real to me, but not to you in your eyes. Is it too late for me? Am I just lost and doom to this horrible fate I see. I refuse! I won't break today! I will seek out hands that will help me fight another day and find the strength I need to fight and survive!" Squee sings to Dib and Dib feels inspired to reach out to others for help.