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Chapter 56- I Lost Her

Chapter 56- I Lost Her

Louis' POV

I sat at my bed helplessly staring at my wall. Im a failure. I've hurt her so bad that she doesn't want anything to do with me. A tear rolls down my cheek.

"Louis "

"Please just leave me for awhile" I mumble and they did give me some time to comprehend everything

You're so pretty when you cry, when you cry
Wasn't ready to hear you say goodbye
Now you're tearing me apart tearing me apart
You're tearing me apart

I close my eyes in frustration and completely lay down then stared at the ceiling. She told me she love me but she still needs to go.

She spoke those words while full blown crying. I made her cry. I made my sweet Cassidy cry. I'm nothing but a douche. Its breaking me in three but I deserve this anyway maybe this is what she felt like when I left her or much worst.

You're so London you own style you own style
Were together its so good so girl why
Are you tearing me apart tearing me apart You're tearing me apart

Its still fresh in my mind how she fit perfectly in that sparkling dress I bought her. The way she walk in Kylie's party. I swear she looks so hot with her straightened hair. Now I wouldn't see it again on her. The feeling that I know its the only piece of cloth she wear. No jeans or shirt that is hard to remove.

Did I do something stupid yeah girl if I blew it
Just tell me what I did let's work through it
There's gotta be some way to get you to want me like before

If I could just bring back time. i would for you love so you would never feel miserable ever again. I have  done something stupid and its not telling you the truth. I should have told you and I know you would understand, your a smart girl after all.

Cause no one ever looked so good
In a dress and it hurts cause I know you won't be mine tonight
No one ever makes me feel like you do when you smile

I caught a glimpse of a piece of photo paper. I took it and saw our picture in Kylie's party. She have that big smile plastered around her face and my arms wrap protectively around he waist.

Baby tell me how to make it right
Now all of my friends say its not really worth it but even if that's true
No one in the world could stop me from not moving on
Baby even if I wanted to nobody compares to you

I just want you to be mine again. How should I do it? You could've just tell how to make things right for both of us. You did told me you still love me so how could I stop

Were so Paris when we kissed when we kissed
I remember the taste  of your lipstick Now your tearing up my heart tearing up my heart
You're tearing up my heart

I groan in frustration. The kisses we share. Its electrifying. So sweet I would more indulge to those precious lips rather than my dessert every dinner. Cassidy your the only one that could help me.

A knock on the door was heard "Louis you should eat. Its better for you Lou"

"leave me alone" I muttered

Cause no one ever looked so good
In a dress and it hurts cause I know you won't be mine tonight
No one ever makes me feel like you do when you smile
Baby tell me how to make it right
Now all of my friends say its not really worth it but even if that's true
No one in the world could stop me from not moving on
Baby even if I wanted to nobody compares to you

I wouldn't know what to do now. Cassidy my Cassidy please come back to me. If I could just do something about it. I could but for today I think I need to be alone and drown myself from my thoughts. And embrace the pain I'm feeling until I've gone numb.

I love you so much Cassidy. I'm willing to do this just for you, to embrace the darkness and dullness in my life.I don't even think my life is worth breathing for without her but I'm willing to do anything for the love of my life even if it meant losing you

Damn! I punch the wall making my knuckles bleed still crying. I will survive this, we will survive this but for now I think its better if I say

Goodbye

-.-

So that's it. Hope you enjoyed. Sorry sorry and more sorties to come. I'm not happy of what it came out. I think its dull and rubbish.