Fighting for our Future {TWD Daryl Dixon}

22: Suicide Mission

The next day Daryl warned me that my father has decided to give Michonne to the Governor, in hopes that a war will not be started. A war has already begun, and we are in the middle of it.

Apparently my father asked Merle to handle this situation for him, which I agree with less. If he's going to be an asshole and send Michonne to her death, he should have the balls to do it himself instead of pawning it off on Merle.

After I found out, I ran to my father to try and get him to change his mind. I pulled him away from everyone else so that we could have this discussion. "Daryl told me."

My father rubbed his hands down his face, and then placed them on his hips. "He shouldn't have."

"Well he did. Why are you doing this? It won't work. Especially if you only turn one of us in." I said.

"He told you about that too?" My father was now annoyed.

"No, I was on watch when you had that discussion. Heard the whole thing." I admitted. "You can't do this. It won't prevent war."

"We have to try." My father stated.

"This deal... He's not going to honor it." I told him. "If there is any hope of him honoring this..... You'd have to hand me over as well."

"No." He quickly said.

"That man has it out more for me than Michonne. I killed his men, his 'daughter', and started that damn shootout. He's not going to accept just her, and I think you know that." I explained to him. "You either have to turn us both in, or neither of us. Those are your only two options." He stared at me with wide eyes. "You know I'm right."

"Nora. I'm not giving you to him. But maybe he'll understand that I can't give you away. You're my daughter."

"That will mean absolutely nothing. I 'killed' his daughter. He's not going to give one single flying fuck that I'm yours. If anything it'll make him want to kill me more." I sighed. "Again, you only have two choices. Hand us both over, or neither of us. At this point whatever you decide is fine. I'd give my life for anyone here." I then walked away before my father could say anything. I'm hoping he changes his mind, but just in case he doesn't I need to be ready.

I was walking to no place in particular, I just needed to be alone with my thoughts. I ended up finding myself in the laundry room. I never thought I would ever be in this room again after Creepo almost killed me in here, but I guess this is the place I needed to be.

I walked in and made my way to the corner of the room, and leaned up against the wall with my legs folded up to my chest. I know my father will never agree to turn me in, but the same can't be said about Michonne. If there is any way at all of the Governor keeping his end of the deal, I have to be involved as well. Which means if Dad goes through with this, I'll have to turn myself in. I'm just hoping that he will change his mind so that I don't have to.

All I can think about, is how I finally met my family nine months ago and how all of that could be ripped away from me again today. But remembering Lori's final advise to Carl and I, 'If it feels wrong or easy don't do it'. Me offering myself to be sacrificed feels easy, because I would do anything to protect everyone who lives here. It also feels like the right thing to do. I can't let Michonne die for what I started. This is my fault, not hers.

Growing up Hudson had always made me believe that I was weak and worthless. I even had a terrible boyfriend right after moving to Atlanta with Glenn who made me believe the same, but now I know I'm not. I've overcome so much in my life, and all that has done is make me stronger. I would like to think that if either of those people who made me feel less than were here, I'd tell them to go to hell. But then again, they're probably already there.