Fighting for our Future {TWD Daryl Dixon}

26: Trust

Trigger Warning: Abuse in flashback

Two months later

A lot has happened in the last two months. My father officially stepped down from being our fearless leader, and has turned himself into a farmer. Instead of his dictatorship, we instead now have a council of leaders who make the decisions for our booming community. The Council consists of Me, Daryl, Glenn, Hershel, Michonne, T-Dog, and one of our newcomers Sasha. We did ask my father to be a part of it, but he said as of right now he wants to take a break, and that he has faith in all of us to lead.

Daryl, Michonne and Merle have been taking turns going on runs searching for the Governor. I've offered to join them, but I'm turned down every time. I hate sitting here waiting for a possible attack. I want to go out and help them search, but I understand why they don't want me going so I stay put.

Sebastian is now less shy, and is starting to come out of his shell more and more. Every once in a while I'll hear a snarky remark come out of his mouth. Now I don't know if that's because of my bad influence, or if it's just his personality. Either way it's glad to see him no longer scared and constantly attached to my hip.

Carl finally came around to having Sebastian live with us, and even apologized to Seb for trying to kill him when they met. The two of them have grown close, and I love to see it.

Sophia has had a few developments as well. One night I walked into the cell she shared with Carl, and saw them making out. I'm okay with them dating, but they are no longer sharing a cell. I'm not becoming a grandmother at twenty-three. Not happening. 

Sophia has also gone out hunting with Daryl a lot recently, and I love how close they are getting. I definitely see a father-daughter bond starting, and that's good since she has now started to call him Dad. I thought he would be more freaked out. I mean he was at first. He was so scared that he would be like his father. Merle and I reassured him, letting him know that he will never be like that bastard.

As for Daryl and I, we are okay. Distant is the word I'd probably use. It's clear we love each other, but it's clear something is going on. Whether it's just his determination to find the Governor, or something bigger. I don't know, maybe I'm just stressing about nothing. I mean we fuck like rabbits, but that's the only time I don't feel the distance between us. Even when we sleep together at night. I can tell something is going on. I hope it's just stress.

I see my mother and Hudson glaring at me all the time, but they haven't caused any problems for me yet. Luckily. However that does worry me. If he's not bugging me, maybe he's bugging someone else. Hurting someone else.

Glenn, Sasha and I have become the new run trio. Maggie isn't joining us anymore after everything that happened with the Governor, and I understand why. Glenn didn't want me going on runs either after what the Governor did, but I need to get out every once in a while. I'm already not allowed to help search for the Governor, but I can at least go out and do something for our group.

Actually, on our run last week we found someone. Her name is Jane. She was all alone holed up in a comic book store. We originally weren't going to go in, but I wanted to get some comics for Carl and Seb. She seemed nice when we met her, we even asked her the three questions we came up with to help determine who we let into the group which are....

How many geeks/walkers have you killed?

How many people have you killed?

Why?

I'm glad I never had to answer those questions. People would instantly not trust me if I told them I've had to kill over thirty people now. I'm sure that if I had been forced to answer those, I would've been turned away.