Fighting for our Future {TWD Daryl Dixon}

102: Who Are You Now?

One Year Later

"So, how are you feeling today?" Siddiq asked me in a caring tone while we sat in one of the infirmary's rooms. 

He's made me stick to the therapy sessions, and honestly I'm glad. They've helped. I still have really bad days occasionally, and I definitely didn't keep my promise to Merle about never hurting myself again. But I've been doing it a lot less.

"I'm okay today." I told him honestly while smiling softly.

"Any new urges to hurt yourself?" He questioned as he leaned back in his chair.

"All the time." I continued my honesty. I've tried to lie to him a few times, but he's always been able to snuff out my bullshit. "But I haven't acted on it since the last time."

The last time I had cut myself was a month ago, and I had accidentally cut a little too deep, so I had to wake Siddiq up in the middle of the night to give me stitches. And what had triggered it was honestly stupid. But in the moment, it didn't feel as stupid as it does now. 

"Yeah, let's talk about that." He looked at me sadly. "How does it feel whenever she talks to him?"

"I hate it." I admitted. "He may be locked up, but I don't want my children anywhere near him. Especially since he's still kind of obsessed with me in a way." I was talking about Negan. I found out that the twins and Judith go to talk to him sometimes. But apparently Avalon talks to him a lot. "I have done so much to keep my kids safe. I have done things that I am not at all proud of, but everything I do is for them." I then looked at Siddiq who was giving me an 'Oh really?' look. "Okay... Maybe not everything is for the kids." I laughed.

"You're a good mom." He stated. "I hope that I can be even half as good at being a parent as you are."

We had recently found out that Rosita is pregnant. She's about three months along, but isn't really showing yet. Her and Siddiq had a one night stand of sorts before she started dating Gabriel. So her and Siddiq are gonna be parents.

"You will be." I said softly. "You and Rosie already love that little bean so much." I laughed. "Plus I'll be around to help with the baby too." I reminded him. 

"Yeah.." He exhaled while smiling and looking directly into my eyes.

"I should go." I told him. "I've got a lot of shit to do today. But I'll still see you tonight, right?"

"Of course." He told me as I got up. "I'll see you tonight."

I then left the room we were in and ran into Sebastian in the hall. He has no clue why I come to the infirmary twice a week. I didn't want to bother my children with my mental health issues. I'm the one who's supposed to be caring for and supporting them, not the other way around.

I was happy when Siddiq told me that he wasn't gonna tell Seb and Enid. But with recent events they probably believe something else is going on in that room when I come to do therapy.

When I exited the infirmary I saw our front gates opening up. Coming inside was Aaron, Rosita, Eugene, Laura, Avalon, Judith, and a bunch of new people.

Wait a fucking minute....

Avalon and Judith? Why were they outside the gates?

And who in the absolute bloody hell are these people?

I looked at the newcomers with an icy glare before screaming to Siddiq who was still inside of the infirmary. He ran outside immediately, and his eyes widened when he saw what was going on.