My venting book + Stories(?)

September 17th, 2024

OK SOO just saying nothing very writing worthy happened. My birthday was on the 25th of August, I went to a football game with my best friend, made new friends.

Anyways TODAY SPECIFICALLY

Well actually I'll give backstory first. So I told yall that my ex moved right? We're still friends and we talk daily. Anyways a few weeks ago I met this hot emo guy and he's so nice and we've been talking and today I paid for his drink and walked him to class like a gentleman until I made the biggest mistake of my life by asking if he was single.

He said he was taken BUT into polyamory aka dating multiple ppl at the same time. He just broke up with a girl bc she wasn't putting in effort after 4 years. Anyways he figured out I have a crush on him and I was dying and he lowkey looked so amused by it but I left after.

JUST NOW (8pm-9pm) my ex texted me saying he still liked me. He told me before that he didn't wanna online date bc he misunderstood my texts and he felt guilty for breaking up with me bc I wanted to make sure I trusted him enough to not judge me for how I act online bc I behave like a rabid dog with my close friends and online.

So erm as crazy as it may seem I'm literally in a love triangle.
WHY IS MY LIFE A FANFICTION BRO

I SWEAR TO GOD IM NOT EVEN JOKING THIS SITUATION SEEMS LIKE SUCH A FANFIC BUT I SWEAR ON MY TWO DEAD AUNTS THAT LITERALLY DIED LAST WEEK THAT THIS IS ALL TRUE AND IM DEALING WITH TWO GUYS THAT LIKE ME AT THE SAME TIME RN

Also yes. This may be tmi or information I shouldn't share but one of my aunts committed suicide two weeks ago and my other aunt who is my dad's mom died of a heart attack (on her bday btw)

So I've been dealing with a lot of death, also my other aunt and uncle and cousins having a near death experience due to dumb driver that's trying to blame them for her fault and she almost killed my entire family (two of which being like 5 years old). So yeah, dealing with a lot of death and boy problems rn

Not including all the tests I've been taking the last two weeks. Also I literally failed a test for the first time today...My biology test. Guys someone pls help me I'm being dead serious what tf is an enzyme and a substrate and lipids and whatever tf she's tryna teach us that none of us can understand. I got a fucking 55 on my test and I'm gonna cry and my parents are gonna yell at me and I'm already dealing with all that other stuff AND my bullies trying to make a comeback by spreading rumors to their friends and ruin ppls views on me.

Lol sorry for yapping and trauma dumping ig but this is my diary so I don't care.
Have a nice day/night tho!