Timeless: Tayvis Oneshots

i met my younger self for coffee

(not a one shot, but i love this trend)

I met my younger self for coffee.

She arrived twenty minutes early, and I was only five minutes before our agreed time. Neither of us ordered coffee; we'll always hate it. Instead, we both got hot chocolates. We'd always stay loyal to those. 

She wore leggings, an oversized shirt, and a baggy hoodie with her hair tucked behind her ears. I wore a bright crop top and shorts, not worrying about the weather enough to wear anything over it, my hair cut short with curtain bangs. We both wore worn down sneakers that we'd used loyally for a long time. That would always stay the same.

The weather was warm, but she kept her hoodie on, hiding the marks of her silent battle she thought no one knew about. She was also hiding her stomach. I wore my scars like just another part of me. I didn't care who looked at them. I sat normally, mostly unbothered by my stomach sticking out when I was sitting. That was normal.

She asked me if I still write. I told her we write more than ever, and we're brave enough to post now, that we have millions of views all up and over a thousand incredibly followers. That blew her mind. She never thought she'd have that kind of joy.

She asked me if we ever got brave enough to try medicating for our anxiety and adhd. I proudly told her yes, that it's changed our life. That we can almost do everything normally now, and things can still be hard, but we've done so much. 

She asked me if we ever figured out what to do after school finishes, because we couldn't see a future beyond graduation. I tell her all about the degree I'm doing, how I met so many amazing people. It stuns her when I say we're moving out of home soon. She never thought I would be ready for that. I tell her we can't wait. That university is the perfect life for us. 

She asked if we ever figured out how to love someone. I laughed and told her no, but that's okay. We've realized that having a partner really isn't the main focus in life, and we're just having fun with everything else right now. That's not on our mind. Whatever comes, will come. 

I told her we're still safe from our fears. That things are better with our family now. That the dark times never really go away, but we find ways to get through them and she just has to hold out for that light at the end of the tunnel.

I told her about our best friends we haven't met yet, but one day we'll give the biggest hug to. I tell her about her soul sisters across the globe. She can't wait to meet them one day. They'll save her. 

When it was time to go, I gave her a big hug. She paused for a moment, but then she hugged me back, and I knew she needed it. I was the person she'd never thought she'd be. I was confident.

And when I left, I told her one last thing.

"The world's big, and we're small, but that's not a bad thing. Nothing's that much of a big deal. You got this."

I love you.