Torn Between Two

Chapter 5

Connor

After math class Troye was silent the whole class. It was weird. He has tear stained eyes. I wish I could be there for him. He just doesn't let me on.  What did I tell you stop it. You're going to get hurt. So don't think about him. Okay fine. I'll stop talking about him. I get it. I really do. I head off to science as fast as I can and sit in the desk.  Assigned seats suck. Troye sits beside me.

“Good morning class.” Mr. Lester says to everyone. I roll my eyes lunch after this and then one more class. I close my eyes and wait for the teacher to give instructions.

“So class we are doing a project and there will be partners. I assigned them so you can't change.” Mr. Lester says. I sigh hoping I get someone who will actually do some work for once.

“Connor you will be paired with Troye Mellet.” Mr. Lester says. I close my eyes again. Why. This is another thing to try and forget.  Trying to forget Troye is like trying to forget my life. And that's really hard. He has had such a big impact on my life and it's been one day! 1 day Connor! He is different from other people he has a different side I want to figure out. You won't get too,leave it be. “Haha you got Connor.” Tyler pokes Troye. I look over and put my head on the desk. “Class this will be due in 3 weeks. So I suggest you guys figure out a plan when you can work on it after class” Mr. Lester says. I sigh. I don't have to go to Troyes house do I? I can't.  He will hurt me. He will beat me and make fun of me. What if he sees my scars then I will get hurt even more. He will use this against me. Please let this be a dream.

“Ugh.” Troye says and laughs. He moves his chair to sit next to me. I just look down. “How about tonight you come over to my house we work on it so we don't have to spend anymore time together.” Troye says to me. I nod. “My house at 4.” Troye says and looks at his nails. “Okay.” I say he hands me his phone and he gives me his number. “Type in your number so I can send you my address later. I can't believe I'm being nice to you.” Troye says. There it is. Him being nice and then him trying to redeem himself from being nice.  He has 2 sides. I want to know the nicer side of him. I want to see what he likes. What music he likes. What cool things he does. “Earth to Connor.” Troye says snapping his fingers in front of my face. I snap out of it and shake my head. “Sorry was thinking about something.” I say lying through my teeth. I'm a good liar now. I have done it for 3 years. What's my whole life going to be. A big lie. I type my number into his phone and close my eyes. The Troye Sivan Mellet just gave me his number.

“Don't think I'm just doing this to be friends. It's for a project and as soon as it's done. I'll block you.” Troye says with a wince. There is that ‘scary’ side of him. He is trying too hard for what to keep his reputation alive. No he wouldn't do that. Maybe he is scared of losing good friends to be around me. Stop thinking and let it be.  Fine okay whatever.

“We should do it on this. The atoms of cat.” Troye says. I nod then smile a fake smile. “Sure.” I say and we look through everything that we need to do. Then the bell rings.  “I'll see you at 4.” Troye says and smiles towards me. He puts his hand on my shoulder and gives it a gentle squeeze.  I look at him and nod. He just touched me again!  The second time today. I felt warm inside. Something I haven't felt before.  He is a cold hearted killer Connor don't let his actions faze you. You know better than that. You're right I know. I'm sorry. I walk out of the class to my locker to grab my art pencils and my book to draw in. What else is there to do. “Hi Connor my name is Troye and I think I'm falling for you. Who would!” Tyler says all girl like. “Leave me alone.” I mumble out trying not to get hurt.  He pulls me up and hits my face with a little hit. Troye nowhere to be seen. “Where is everyone shouldn't you not do this alone?” I ask trying to get out of the situation. “Shut up Franta. You even touch Troye we kill you.” Tyler says and I nod.  I won't I can't.  My brain won't let me do it so trust me I won't. “I got it.” I mumble out and he walks away. I sit back down and hold my eye. It's going to become a black eye. Troye comes up to me. “What's up?” Troye asks me. I gulp and look at him. “Look you can't talk to me you have to go and hang out with Tyler and Zoe.” I say scared. “What?” I ask and then think of Tyler sees me he will kill me. “Please just go.” I say and he walks away. I lean down again.