Torn Between Two

Chapter 64

Connor (READ OTHER NOTE AT THE END.)

I don't know what that was back there. I tried to kiss him. I fucking miss him but, I don't know what I am doing. I miss him more and more each day 3 weeks to be exact. I hear the bell ring and tears down my face. I run to my locker opening it up fast. I keep my head in trying to breathe. The tears down my face. A tap on my shoulder. I turn around. "You forgot this." Troye says and hands me the notes. "Thanks." I say and then breathe in. "Umm. Connor is it possible to talk to you after school?" Troye asks me I then stop. Why? I avoided him for so long. 3 weeks. "Umm.." I studder out. I then open and close my mouth like a fish out if water. "Umm." I say looking down the hall and then see Jamie coming towards me. "I get it never mind." Troye says and then looks down.You know what man up Connor. "Um sure Troye at 3 okay?" I ask and he looks shocked. "Ugh yeah sure. Okay see you then?" Troye says and then slowly turns around. I need to do it. "Wait Troye." I say and then he turns around I grab his arm and pull him to me. Before I say anything stupid my lips on his soft cheek. The taste of his lips on me. My hand on his chest. This is not a getting back together kiss. It's me saying I am not giving up and wait for me. I break away and then bite my lip. "See you at 3 Troye." I say and the close my locker. I then start to walk away. Troye pulls me around. "What was that about?" Troye asks me quietly. "I'll explain everything at 3 okay?" I ask him and smile a little. His blue eyes making me melt. "Okay." He says and then slowly let's go of my hand. I then back up slowly and then walk down the hall fast. People looking at me. I keep my head down. I hear Jamie calling out for me. "Connor." He says and finally catches up. "What? Was? That?" He says pausing through each word. "It was me kissing him." I say and he looks at me. "Of course. I mean why I thought you didn't like him anymore." Jamie says and I laugh a little. "Jamie I have always loved him. I still love him. That kiss was to show him not to give up on relationship we had." I say and then he comes closer to me. He kisses my lips. The kiss not gentle like Troye's. Rough not a good taste. I push him away. "Jamie no. I don't like you. You may like me but, I am sorry I am Troyes even though we are not together." I say and then turn and walk to my class. I sit down and then think. What am I going to say to Troye when it comes 3. What will I do? Will I kiss him again? I don't know. Is he in a relationship with Tyler. I see Tyler all touching I just don't know. I don't pay attention in my classes. From class to class to lunch to classes they are just a blur. I just think about Troye. He is always on my mind. 'I am tired of this place I hope people change' Troyes little quote maybe lyric from this morning. I am tired of this place and the people here need to change. Badly. I hear the last bell ring and I jump and then get up and rush to my locker. I grab my phone and then meet by the doors at 2:59. I bite at my lip. I am nervous very nervous. I look out the window for a bit. "Connor." Troye says and taps my shoulder. I turn around. "Hi." I say and then he smiles. "Where are we going?" He asks. "I thought just out for a little walk while we talk." I say and he nods. We walk down the door. My hands in my pockets same with him. Walking side by side. "So the kiss what did that mean?" Troye asks kicking the dirt underneath his step. "Umm I guess what I was trying to say is that don't give up?" I ask myself. "Don't give up on what? Life? What?" He asks and then I stop. "Don't give up on us. I don't want you to leave me. If you find someone." I say and then breathe in and out then keep walking. "I won't. I missed that." Troye says and then I keep walking. "Me too." I say being honest. "You and Jamie?" Troye asks. "We are nothing more than friends and he knows that." I say and Troye nods. We keep walking. "Well I am very sorry for the past 3 weeks I have been ignoring you it's just a way for me to think and shit I guess." I say and he nods. "No it's okay. I understand I shouldn't have pressured you into talking." Troye says. "I mean I wasn't ready and today is different I felt something when I left like a spark again and it hurt but, felt okay?" I ask myself. "I get it." Troye says. We keep walking then find somewhere to sit I don't look at him. I might cry "Only fools fall for you? Did you mean that?" I ask him and he sighs. "No it just came out." Troye says. I nod and then silence again. "Connor is there ever a chance you could ever come back with me?" Troye asks me with hopefully eyes. His hand on my hand. I then look down at the ground and think hard and long about this one question. Should I take him back? "Yeah there is a chance." I say and then he smiles. For a while we sit there and enjoy the company of each other that we haven't had in 3 weeks.

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Hi guys im writing as much as I can lately since none of it saved. I know there are so many chapters and what do you think of a sequel???? Idk yet but comment if you like the idea! *winks* byeeee