Torn Between Two

Chapter 65

Troye

Connor leaves and I just stand there. I miss his lips on mine. I miss his hand in mine.  How long am I going to have to wait to even talk to him again. The song. Gasoline is what I called it. I am almost finished a few more lines and I am done. I wrote it when I was upset. The lyrics are me crying and about Connor leaving me for those how many long weeks. I play with my hands slowly as I wait for my mom to come and pick me up. I see the car and walk out smiling at her. She looks at me. I sit in the front. "Hi Troye good day today?" She asks me. I buckle up. "Umm could say that." I say and then reach for the aux cord. I decide to play some slow music. All of me. "What would I do without your smiling mouth!" I sing out. Not caring who hears and doesn't.  "What's going on in that beautiful mind?" I sing out. The red light and my mom looks at me. "Did you know you can sing like well.  I know that for a while you were finding your voice but baby, you found it. It's amazing." My says. I smile and cover my face. "Cause I give you allllll of me." I hit the high note. "Have you thought of going into music Troye. Like after school. Cause you know piano too. Troye when you were little you talked about being Micheal Jackson. You can still do that." My mom says excited. "Did you have a good day?" I ask and we laugh together. "Well now it got better." She says and then touches my face. Then a green light.  "Troye I love seeing you happy." My mom says. "The only reason why I am happy is because Connor talked to me. He talked me mom. He actually talked to me. At the end we had a chat about everything." I say and she smiles. "That's great Troye. I am so happy for you." My mom says. I can't believe that we might talk even more tomorrow there is still chance we can be together.  I look out the window singing, low so I don't sing to loud. I smile at the memories coming into my head, of us. I smile and we make it home. My mom gets out and I close my eyes for a second thinking this will all be a dream. These 3 weeks will all be a dream and I will wake up with Connor in my bed. Sleeping peacefully. Sleeping against my chest. Listening to my heartbeat. I will feel his hair against my neck. The peaceful breaths he breathes when he dreams. When he mumbles little words out of his mouth when he sleeps. "Troye are you coming?" My mom asks me. I look at her and then nod. "Sorry just thinking." I say and then something comes to my mind. "Just set my heart on fire, like gasoline bathe me now, wash me clean just set my heart on fire, just like gasoline." I mumble out and I stop. "Troye?" My mom asks. I whip my phone out and write it down. "I did it. Mom I really did it." I say and look up. "What did you do Troye?" My mom asks. "I finished my song. The song for music. I have it done. I thought I would never get that song finished. Gasoline." I say and then hug her tight. "Oh Troye honey I am so proud of you." My mom says. I hug her and put my face into her neck. I breathe in her sent. "Honey?" My mom asks me. "Yeah." I say. "Do you miss you dad?" My mom asks. "Umm kind of but, not."I say and then close my eyes. "Is the song you wrote about Connor?" My mom asks.  "Yeah. The whole song is about him and he will listen to it the first time we play together. I mean I hope he likes it. I think we do it next week." I say and then she nods. "I hope he likes it." I say and she nods. "He will I know he will." My mom says. We walk into the door and my sister smiles at me. I smile back and she looks at me. "What did you do that made you so happy?" My sister asks. "Umm well I don't know maybe I got to talk to someone who makes me happy.  Someone who makes me wanna love myself.  Connor." I say and she stops. "Wait what?? 3 weeks and he talks to you?" My sister says. I nod and she hugs me. "Oh yesss please." Sage says and then hugs me tight.  "I want you two to be back together." Sage says and I nod. "Yeah I know I do as well." I say and then that night I go to bed happy.  Slowly I make my way to the sheets. To cover myself up with the warmth. The warmth by me not there but, hopefully soon. I didn't have to say I loved you to say I loved you. Didn't need shooting stars when you were my blue moon. I slowly close my eyes to the darkness to close me into a goodnight sleep.  I know tomorrow will be good tomorrow. I will be able to have a good day. I slowly wake up to the bright light in my eyes and then I hear someone scream. I jump up and run to the scream. "Sage?" I ask worried. I then hear her screaming more running from my brothers. "It's mom Troye. She...she just fell... call the ambulance." My sister says. I go right to my phone and call 911. They come as fast as they can. "We need you to move so we can get to her." They say and I move. The one thing that goes through my mind is........

What if I lose her as well.......

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Well guys oh shit what is going to happen next. Needed to get it going ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh.  Well sorry for the long update time. Busy with school and stuff. Comment what you think.  *winks* byeee