Torn Between Two

Untitled Part 54

Connor

I walk down the stairs in tears. Sage yelling after me. I wipe the tears and walk down the stairs. Then down the next set of steps to go downstairs. I feel a hand on my shoulder. "I didn't mean it! Okay I didn't do it. Sage I am sorry. He did it to me!" I cry out. I fall to the ground shaking. "What if he doesn't love me anymore." I cry out to Sage. "He will he just needs space. I heard him talking to you. I know it may be scaring right now but, he will always love you. I know this okay." Sage says and helps me up. "I didn't want Jamie to kiss me." I say and then wipe my tears. "I know you didn't Troye knows that too now." Sage says. "He hurt me. I know I told him I didn't but he did. My back really hurts." I say and then feel the pain in my back. "Let me see. Lay on the couch right there." Sage says and points to the couch. I go and lay down. I lift my shirt up and then breath out. "Yeah there is some bruising and some welts. I will get you some ice. There will be swelling. I know he didn't mean it." Sage says. "I know too." I say and she runs up the stairs to get me some ice. I know I should have left the situation when I could. I felt him come and then he grabbed my head. What was he thinking. I didn't like it. I really didn't I wipe my lips. It didn't taste sweet. It tasted like no love was in the kiss. I didn't kiss back but, it was a different kind of kiss. It was cool? Sweet I have no clue! No I can't think of that. I love Troye I know I do. I take my ring off and play with it in my hands. "He gave this to me for a reason." I say to myself. Sage comes back down with ice. She puts it on my back. I shiver at the cold. I then decide to close my eyes and forget about it. "Get some rest in 20 minutes I will change your ice okay?" Sage asks me. I nod. "Thank you Sage." I say and she smiles. She kisses my forehead. "I'm always here for you." Sage says and then walks up the stairs. I hold the ring in my hand and close my eyes. I know I drift off to sleep and I feel the ice being changed after a good time. I get a chill and blankets are pulled up over top of me. I then roll over. I open my eyes to see my blue eyes boy looking at me with red eyes. "I'm sorry." Troye says and puts the ice on my back. I wince a little. "I am so sorry for hurting you Connor." Troye says. I just close my eyes. "It's fine." I say and turn my head to look away from him. "Connor." Troye says. "Save it for now. I am not feeling well." I say lying. I just can't look at him. I know I can't look at him. I can't tell him it was different and it was nice? NO IT WASN'T NICE CONNOR!

"Connor please look at me." Troye says and touches my hand. I pull away from him. "You might hurt me again." I whimper out and move closer to the back of the couch. "I won't I promise." Troye says. "You promised me when we first started dating and look." I say snapping at him. "Connor." Troye says and then stands up. I cuddle up to the back of the couch. I feel him sit down and I keep my eyes closed. Then the blanket comes up and Troye gets under. "Out." I mumble. I try and sit up and try and get out. He puts his hands on my sides. "You are going to hurt yourself." Troye says. "Get away from me." I say and then stand up. Troye pulls me down and I start to cry. "Stop." I cry into his chest. I hit his chest with my fists. "Leave me be." I cry. Troye holds me closer to me. I keep hitting my hands against his chest. I cry hard now. "Sage." I whimper out. Troye holds me closer so I can't hit his chest anymore. "I am sorry Connor." Troye says and kisses the top of me head. "No I will hurt you. What if Jamie does it again. I can't do that too you." I say and cry hard into his chest. "You won't I know you won't I am sorry. I love you." Troye says to me. I just keep my mouth shut and listen to him I just can't speak. I know he will get mad at me later on in the month about something again. I didn't know love was this hard. Maybe I was not meant to love. "I am not made for this. I know I am not able to handle this Troye. I don't know what I am." I cry out. "Connor you are meant for me. You may not know what you are I do. You are the sweetest most, kind person I know. I know you care for people when you shouldn't care sometimes. You wear your heart on your sleeves and I have to get used to that. I can't just through some things at you and let you take it. I have to do it easy. Connor I love you and I know you know this. I am so sorry I hurt you. I didn't mean it. Please forgive me Connor." Troye says with his heart in my arms right now. "I - I forgive - y - you." I say and Troye holds me close. "How is your back?" Troye asks me. I open my hand and put the ring on. "It hurts but, I am fine." I say and he nods. I put my head on his chest and close my eyes. Troye sings to lightly. "Time to change the icepack." Sage says. Troye turns around. "You two okay now?" Sage asks. I nod and smile. "Yeah we are good." Troye says and takes the ice pack off my back. Sage hands him the other one. "I swear to god if you hurt him again then I will hurt you Troye." Sage says and hits his head a little. "I was mad. I know I won't do it again. I am so guilty." Troye says. Sage nods and then walks up the stairs again. "It is swollen. It might take some time." I say and Troye nods. I close my eyes and fall asleep knowing I should sleep. "Troye!" Shaun yells and comes down the stairs. I wake up and hold him close.

"Dad leave me alone." Troye says. "No get away from HIM!" Troye's dad yells and then comes closer. "Shaun please leave him alone." I say and sit up and then hold Troye back a little. "Shut up fucker!" Shaun yells at me. "If you don't get away from him then you will get hurt too." Shaun says. I don't move. "Dad if you touch him I have 911 on dial any minute." Troye threatens. "Fine then get him away from you. I want to talk to you." Shaun says. "Talking to you is hurting him!" I yell standing up slowly. "I won't let you hurt my boyfriend. I don't care what you say. I will take the hits for him! FOR HIM!" I yell and then he looks at me. He pushes me and then I stand my ground. "I am calling 911 now!" Troye yells and then puts the phone to his ear. "If you talk I will hurt you!" Shaun yells. He goes for Troye and I hold him back. I then use all my strength. "Hi I need help. My dad is abusive and I need you guys now." Troye cries out. "Okay." Troye says and then I don't hear the rest when I feel a punch in my face. "Don't touch him!" Troye yells and then pushes him back. "Look what you did." Troye yells and then puts his phone down. "You are going to jail!" Troye yells and then pushes him. "I found out what hurts you more than me hitting you. Me hurting him. Might as well hurt him more before I go to hell." Shaun yells. Troye starts to cry trying to get him away from me. Everyone down here trying to stop their dad. I feel a kick on my back. Then more and more. "They are here!" Sage yells and then runs up. "Get away from him!" Troye yells I feel one more hit and then relief. "You are under arrest for child abuse. You have the right to remain silent and everything you say will be used against you in court." The police say. I feel someone come to my side. Troye by me. "Connor. Oh my god. Baby I am sorry. Look at me." Troye says breathing heavy. Sage by me. Laurelle talking to the police. I see Shaun get pulled away. Yelling and screaming. I see Troye crying, Sage trying to get me to talk. His brothers trying to calm down Troye. Troye holding my hand tight. "Mam I am going to ask you a few questions. We will take him to the hospital and everyone will be questioned." The police say. I can't go the hospital. I hate it there. They will see my scars. They will see what I have done to myself. "Connor you are going to be okay. I know it may not seem like it. They will take you to the hospital and make you feel better." Troye says. I put my hand to his face. "Don't let them. They will know." I say and then last thing I remember is the tears of Troye and the screaming of him on my body as I feel my body go limp and tired and nothing but black gets me.

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Guys what! 1k reads thank u all so fucking much sorry I haven't posted in a bit.  I have a lot going on. I wrote just didn't post. So thank u all and well poor Connor wonder what will happen *winks* byeeeee