Torn Between Two

Chapter 28

Troye 

After Tyler leaves Connor looks angry. "I know I am not fat." Connor says and he grabs his art bag. Then hands me mine. He closes the locker door and starts to walk away. "Connor." I say and chase him down the hall I grab his hand and turn him around. "Troye not now." Connor says. He walks around the corner what has gotten into him. "Connor talk to me." I say and he just keeps walking. I grab his hand one more time and pull him pretty much drag him into the bathroom. I need to talk to him. "Troye!" Connor yells everyone looking at us now. I bring him in and look around to see if anyone is there. I just look at him and then I kiss him. I need him to stay calm I need him to talk to me. I need him to listen to me. I need to let him know that I am here to talk to and listen. I slowly kiss him lightly. Not too hard and not too soft. Just enough to tell him I am here for him. He breaks away. "Troye you can't just do that." Connor says. I put my hand on my hip. "What can't I do Connor?" I ask and he just looks at me. "Pull me in the hall and then kiss me." Connor says. "The hell was that back there then?" I ask and he looks down. "Let's just get to fucking class." Connor says and then pushes past me. "Connor stop." I say and he turns around. "What do you want me to say? Huh? That I am happy? That i'm okay? Well Troye I am not okay. I am tired of living. You know this. If you are going to date me then, you have to get used to me being like this. Okay?" Connor asks and then I touch his face. "I just want to help." I say and he looks down as well. "I know you do, but sometimes it's hard to understand me, I am sorry for just walking away but, you have to let me be like this, it's a way of letting out my stress. Sadness everything." Connor says. "Okay I am sorry too." I say and he nods. "Now let's get to art class." Connor says and kisses my cheek. I nod and we walk down the halls with people staring at us from left to right. I just keep walking behind Connor. He is walking fast. He just wants to get out of the halls. We make it to the art room and Connor goes to sit down in his normal spot. I walk up to Mr. Howell. "Um sir is it okay if I sit next to Connor he has no one beside him. Also I don't get along with those people anymore."I ask him and he looks at me. Then to Connor. "Yeah sure. Just get your work done." Mr. Howell says. I nod and slowly walk away. "Mr. Mellet." Mr.Howell calls to me. I walk back to him. "Um so I am thinking about your drawing. I did tell you to draw out your emotions and well I am guessing Connor and you are going through some tough times so I will allow you to draw whatever you want." Mr. Howell says. "Thank you." I say and walk to Connor. His head on the desk. Breathing in and out. His hand playing with the sleeve of my sweater. I sit next to him and rub his leg lightly. His head shoots up and looks at me. "You can sit here?" Connor asks nervously. He looks over to where I sat. "Yeah. Mr. Howell said I can." I say and then put my hand up on the table and push my seat in a little more Connor keeps looking over at the table. I put my hand on his arm. "Connor it's okay. They are not Tyler they are friends with Tyler but, they won't hurt me." I say and Connor puts his head down on the table. "Okay." Connor says and closes his eyes. "Hey let's draw something together." I say and he looks at the paper on the table. "Like what?" Connor asks and then takes his pencil out. "Umm something funny." I say and then look at the paper. I put my pencil to work. Just drawing something funny. I decide to draw Tyler animated but badly. "Look it's Tyler." I say and Connor looks at the page and smiles. Then Connor draws something his mouth open and eating something.

"Oh my god Connor." I say and start to laugh. Connor has drawn a dick in his mouth and shit all over his face. "What it suits him." Connor says and starts to laugh. I start to laugh too. Mr. Howell looks at us. We stop laughing for a few seconds until he looks away and goes into his office. Connor looks at me and we start to laugh even more. I grab the page and flip it over so we don't get into trouble. "Wow we are very good artists." Connor says. "Well Mr. Howell did say draw out your feelings." I say and Connor nods. "Yeah he sure did and that's what I am feeling right now." Connor says and puts his hand over his mouth. Then he puts it down after a while and he smiles a little still. I look at his smile. "I like that." I say and he tilts his head. "What?" Connor asks. "Your smile, it suits you." I say and Connor smirks. "Well it's hard to smile." Connor says and touches his face. "Well I hope I can make you smile more." I say and he smiles. We just enjoy each other's company when the bell rings. Connor puts his things away and same with me. We walk out and then Connor reaches for my hand. I take it happily. We walk down the hall to his locker. He hands me his book science. Shit we need to work on our project. He puts his art on the bottom. I look down the hall to see Tyler staring at me. I just look away and think. Don't do anything you will regret Troye. Please don't. I just look at Connor and smile as he picks his binder up. He looks really good with my sweater on. His ass my lord. Those tight jeans make it look 20 times better. I grab my pencil and I lean against the locker. I just stare at him. He looks at me and smiles. "What? Do I have something on my face?" Connor asks me. I just shake my head. "Just wanted to tell you are very hot today. With my sweater and those jeans make you look 20 times hotter. But I don't know how that works because you are already like 100 times hotter." I say and his face goes red. "No stop my face." Connor says and covers it. "I'm just telling the truth." I say and he smiles. "Let's get to class cheesy little shit." Connor says and closes his locker. I turn around to see Tyler walking towards us. I just look at Connor ignoring him. It's us two against the world. I walk past Tyler not even giving a shit. "Mellet." Tyler says. I don't bother. We walk into the science room. "Hello boys." Mr. Lester says. I nod and sit down beside Connor with my hand still holding his. I look as Tyler enters the room. I just pay attention to Connor not bothering to even talk to him. He just wants to make my life miserable but if I have someone who makes me happy and he is not going to ruin that for me. The teacher talks and starts to talk about things. I just keep Connor's hand in mine. His left hand in my right. For a while I just watch Connor pay attention to the teacher. "Alright guys make sure you work on your project." The teacher says and we stand up. "Did you even learn anything in that class or were you too busy watching me?" Connor asks. Walking around the desk to pick up a pencil that fell. "Umm I learned something." I say and he smiles. "What that my face is like a map?" Connor asks. "Well that and that you are still beautiful." I say and he smiles. He touches my nose and we walk out. Lunch time. I have to get Connor to eat something. Shit we don't have food today. Tyler would usually buy me food. Fuck. Connor opens his locker and he puts his things away. I take his hand and kiss it. "Awe look at that!" Tyler says and pushes me into the locker a little. "Why can you just not leave us alone!" I yell at him. "It's fun making fun of you. You also chose this life Mellet." Tyler says and I sigh. I didn't chose it. He made me. "Leave!" I yell and then sit down right beside Connor's locker. Connor sits next to me. "Fine whatever Mellet. Franta." Tyler says and walks away. I roll my eyes and Connor looks at me. Then he puts his head on my lap. His eyes staring at me. I put my hands on his chest. We just talk about the randomest shit ever. Laughing at certain times. Being there for each other when we touched a sad subject. But that's what relationships are for. Being there through the thick and thin.