Torn Between Two

Chapter 53

Troye 

I cuddle Connor tight. I don't want him to feel I don't love him. I don't want him to feel that I am in love with Tyler because I am not. Tomorrow we should get our minds off this and hand with Jamie it might help with both of us. I slowly close my eyes. To get the thoughts out of my mind. Connor turns around to face me and he puts his one leg over my body and the other stretched out. I smile and put my hand on his butt. He puts his face into my neck more. I finally fall asleep peacefully. Not caring how warm I am from his body heat.

"Fuck go back to sleep Connor what is wrong with you." I hear someone whisper. I hear walking and crying. "Fuck you are going to wake him up for what? A bad dream that is not happening. I know he told you to but, I can't wake him up. He is too cute when he sleeps. Maybe if I look at him I will calm down. Connor stop snap out of it. Go get some water." Connor cries out. I open my eyes and turn to see him with the little lamp on at my desk. "Connor?" I ask and he jumps maybe 10 feet in the air. "Sorry Tro go back to sleep I am okay I promise." Connor says and I sit up a little. "No you are not come here." I say and open my arms. "I didn't want to wake you I am fine. Just a little dream I am fine. I will turn the light off I am sorry. You were to cute to wake up and things and well." Connor rambles on. "Connor." I say and he doesn't listen. "Troye I am really sorry. It is nothing big. A little dream and shit I am okay." Connor continues to say. "Connor Joel Franta." I say and he stops talking and then looks at me with teary eye. "What I am sorry." Connor says and then stands up. I jump out of bed. "Look at me." I say and spin him around. "Connor listen to me. I gave you this for a reason okay?" I say and lift his right hand up and point at the promise ring. "Yeah I know you did." Connor starts to say. I cut him off. "I love you and whatever you have up in there I will try and stop it. Okay listen to me. I love you so much Franta and don't think for a second to wake me up when you have these dreams." I say and touch his face lightly. "I won't. I am sorry." Connor says and puts his face down. I hug him tight. His head on my chest. "It is okay. I want you to wake me when you have thoughts, bad dreams. I want to be there for you." I say and he nods. I slowly bring him back to bed. I set him between my legs and put the covers over his legs. I rub his stomach and kiss his hair a lot. "I really am sorry. The dream was you leaving me for." Connor chokes out. "Tyler." He whispers the last part. "Never ever would I do that. I can't even think about that without getting a gross feeling in my stomach." I say and he nods. He puts his head back on my chest and slowly falls asleep again. I keep him close and slowly fall asleep again. I know he is hurting and I told him I will be there for him. I want him to know that. I know it may take time but, he will understand soon.

"Boys!" My mom calls out. Connor rolls over and his hand falls off my chest. "Boys time to get up. It is almost 10." My mom calls out against the door. "Don't make me come in there." She calls out. "Why mom." I groan out. "Good you are up. Be out here in 10 or I will break your door down." My mom calls out one more time. "Yeah Troye you better not be having sex!" Sage calls out and laughs. Connor puts his face into the sheets. I slowly brush my hand against his back. "No." Connor groans out. "I won't get up I am tired." Connor says. "I will make you." I say and he shakes his head. I slowly put my hand on his sides and start to tickle him. "No Troye." Connor yells and wiggles away. I smile and then he rolls off the bed. "Oww." Is all I hear and then no movement. "Troye that was rude." Connor says and the pokes his head up. He makes a little angry face. I smile and then start to laugh. "No don't laugh at me." Connor says and pouts his lip. I lean to his face. "I am sorry you are cute when you are angry." I say and pout with him and then kiss his lips. I break the kiss and he whines. "No stop." Connor says and takes my head. "Later. We have to get down there before my mom breaks the door and then we won't ever have sex again." I say and he looks at me. "I know you wouldn't like that." I say and then stand up and finding some clothes. I toss him a sweater and then some jeanes. "Wear these they make your ass look nice." I say and he laughs he puts the sweater on and then the pants. I put clothes on and pick up my cell phone. "Who are you calling?" Connor asks and then fixes his hair quickly. "Jamie maybe we can hang out with him." I say and Connor nods and then we walk out. "Hi Jamie would you like to come over and hang for a bit?" I ask through the phone as we walk down the stairs. "Just us or is Connor there too?" Jamie asks. "Both of us are here." I say and smiling at Connor when he turns around and makes a face at me. "Okay for sure I will be over in 20." Jamie says. "I will text you my house address." I say. "Okay see you soon." Jamie says. The line goes off and then I hang up. I grab some food and Connor does as well. "Look at you." I say and hit him ass and walk by smiling. "Get a room." Sage sings out. "Oh shut up." I say and hit her shoulder. Connor smiles and then takes a bit of food. I do as well. Then Sage comes up to us and looks at our hands. "When the hell did this happen?" Sage asks looking at Connor's ring. "Last night Sage. I asked him." I say and she smiles. "Awe isn't that cute. I am happy for you too. Good job bruv." Sage says and then smacks my shoulder again. I see Connor smile and eat his food. "I am glad you are eating again." I say to Connor. "Troye I have an idea." Connor says and looks at me. "Yeah anything." I say and then he takes a bit of food. "I want to join the swim team." Connor says. "Wait you do!" I say and jump up and down like a little kid. "Yeah I have always loved swimming. I just was scared to with my body. But now I will become healthier maybe have a better diet and shit." Connor says. I smile. I run over to him and hug him tight. "Oh I am so proud of you yes of course. Is it every Monday?" I ask him he nods. "Yeah it is I see it in the halls. I know that I will be bad at it at first then I might become good. I will become fit. If I stick to it Tro I will get abs." Connor says and smiles taking another bite of food.