Torn Between Two

Chapter 59

Connor

We finish shopping and now it is in 1 pm by the time we get back into the car. I am very tired from walking so much. When your muscles don't like you it's kinda hard to walk everywhere.   I get in Troye putting the bags in the back and I buckle up and close my eyes. Rubbing my legs lightly. When Troye gets in I stop. I don't want to ruin our happy mood. We bought lots of clothes and only spent 400 dollars each. It was fun. When Troye tried on something to small he couldn't get out of it. I had to help him. The same way around.  Then a shirt that was super tight he couldn't get out for maybe a good 10 minutes.  I smile at the thought of this.  Troye puts his seat belt on and I close my eyes and start to slowly fall asleep. My head makes it to his lap and Troye's hands in my hair. Playing with it slowly. "Did you guys have fun?" Laurelle asks. "Yeah I sure did!" Sage yells.  "Sage shut up. Connor is sleeping." Troye says and I smile a little before falling into the darkness of happiness.

"Connor baby time to get up. I let you sleep and extra half and hour. Time to get up." Troye says shaking me. "Carry me." I say like a child. Troye laughs a little. I feel arms come around me and I feel the sear leave me. I am then carrier inside. "Hi." Troye says when I finally open my eyes. "Hi." I groan and then he walks upstairs into his room. I smile and he sets me on the bed and then I see all the bags around me. The clothes we all bought.  "I call wearing the sweater you told me I could not buy." I say and then go in and find it and he laughs. "Cause I told you I was buying it. It doesn't matter we share clothes anyways." Troye says. "That is true." I say and Troye then looks at the clock.

"We have a good 1 hour to get ready then head over to the house."  Troye says I nod and then look for my new skinny jeans. A nice light blue  "I am wearing my jeans the light blue." I say and he nods.  "How about we don't look at each other when we get ready then once we are done we look and I know I will get to see something very hot." Troye says. I laugh. "Okay I'll get dressed in here let me use some of your hair products.  "Yeah of course." Troye says and then goes into the bathroom.   He hands me some of it and I smile. "See you in 20." I say and Troye nods.  I close the door and then smile. This is going to be fun. I know it will. Troye with me. Slow dancing.  Dancing to whatever we can  while having a good time. "Okay." I say and then through my clothes off to the side and then put my jeans on then a shirt with a sweater.  I then do my hair. Into a nice and quiff goals one. I then fix my sweater and go and look for something that will add to my look. I walk over to the bedside table and grab something I haven't warn cause I don't want to wreck it.  The promise ring. I know that this will add to it. Most defenetly. I then put it on and remember when he did it. It was beautiful. He is beautiful. He is sweet kind. I don't know what I did to deserve him. I then sit on the bed and play with the ring. Honestly if he has not been in my life I would have done it. And if he ever does leave me I don't know what I would do with my life  would I kill myself? Would I be depressed. Very depressed start cutting again. Probably kill myself.  I can't think about him loving someone else. Yes it sounds selfish but, I can't and won't lose him.

I stand up and feel a little dizzy. I walk to the mirror and then sigh.  I'm ready. "Baby you done?" Troye asks through the door. "Yeah one second." I say making sure everything is good. I put some lip chap on and wall to the door. The dizziness still a little there. I push it to the back of my mind. I want to have fun tonight.  "Okay." I say and he opens the door. I stand there with my hands in my pockets of the jeans. "Wow." Troye says looking at me. He walks close to me and kicks the door closed and touches my face lightly.  "You look amazing." I say and then fix the collar of his shirt a little. "You look so hot. I could fuck you right now." Troye says and then leans in for a kiss. I kiss back. "Mhhm cherry." Troye mumbles to me and then kisses me harder. "Don't ruin the hair." I mumble into the kiss. He smiles and then pushes me against the wall. I smile as this action takes me by suprise. This kiss feels so good. I love it. "Boys you ready?" Laurelle asks through the door.  "Mhhm yep." Troye says breaking the kiss for a second.  "Okay out in 2." She says and then walks away. Troye rolls his eyes and then comes closer to kiss me. "Okay I love this but we have to go babe." I say to him. He groans. "Later tonight okay?" I pretty much tell him  he smiles.  "Okay cool!" Troye says we grab our phones and wallet and we walk down the stairs hand and hand. "Awe look at that. Finally Troye and Connor coming out of the room." Sage says. I laugh a little.  "Your lucky. It's a rare spotting." Troye says. "Pictures!" Laurelle screams. I laugh a little and then we walk into the living room. "All 3 of you then Troye and Connor and Sage and yeah." Laurelle says and then I hand her my phone. "Can you take a few on my phone too. I want to have nice pictures up on my wall." I say and she nods. We all get I'm and make funny faces. Then we smile for some and then Sage steps out and Laurelle goes to my pictures. Troye looks at me and then I smile. He grabs my face and kisses it. "Ewww." Sage says sarcastically. The picture is taken and then Troye tells me to get on his back to take another cute one. I do and he holds my legs. "Alright any other ones?" Laurelle asks. "One more."I say and then Troye is about to do something but I kiss his cheek before he can do anything. He smiles and the picture is taken. Then she takes some of us hugging and being 'normal' then we step out of the way and Sage takes some nice ones. By herself with me and Troye.  We then put our shoes on and we walk out of the door. From.the safe haven I only know to people who I have no clue who they are in another house or outside I don't even know but something that will be a different a very big change.  "Ready?" Laurelle asks. We nod and then I hold Troyes hand very hard as we take off.  I look out the window and bounce my leg up and down. Troye puts his other hand on my leg. "It's okay people will be there that you know and me okay. And Sage." Troye whispers to me. For a while we drive to the party. Sage chatting with Troye and her mom. Troye has done this before I know that because he was popular before he has known me. Before he even talked to me he was popular. "Just make sure you guys don't drink to much okay always keep your drink with you." Laurelle says should I even drink? Should I just not bother with it. I sigh and then we get here. Laurelle gets out for a minute. I then start to breathe harder and harder hearing the music and all the people. Sage looks back. "I'll see you in there guys." Sage says Troye nods and I start to panic. Troye buckles me. "This isn't a good idea." I say and then feel sweat come down off my face. "Hey Connor listen to me. You have me. You have Sage and ummm Jamie okay listen to me.  I love you and you will be okay. It's scary at first but, it will be fine okay?" Troye asks me and then holds my face and makes me calm down at the touch. I nod and he kisses me. The love in this kiss makes me happy. This kiss makes me melt. He breaks the kiss. "You will have fun okay?" Troye asks me. I nod and we get out. "Okay you guys have fun. I'll pick you up at 12?" Laurelle asks. "Yeah." Troye says and then we walk off hand. Sage beside me. We get into the house and the music playing loud people laughing and drinks in everyone's hand. I breathe in and out. I can do this. I can do this Troye takes me into what seems like the living room. Tyler right there. Troye's hands on me making sure I don't get lost in the crowd. "Wow Mellet and Franta made it!" Tyler shouts. Tyler dissappear for a minute and then comes back with 2 drinks in his hands. "Here. Welcome." Tyler says and I take it not going to drink it maybe. Then Troye takes it but doesn't open it. "Hang with us guys." Tyler says and then Jamie touches my hand. I smile and we follow Tyler into the room with tables. "They are playing beer pong. Troye I know you used to play this game so well!" Tyler yells. "Yeah but I don't drink anymore." Troye yells kind of through the crowd. I hold his hand tight. Everyone giving Troyes hugs and me too. "This is what it's like to be popular Connor!" Tyler yells I nod and then stay close to Troyes side