Torn Between Two

Chapter 66

Connor

I slowly go to bed with a smile on my face. Besides getting yelled at from my dad. I open my window to get a nice air flow for tonight. I jump into bed. I close my eyes and the beautiful sleep comes into my brain.

I wake up with the light into my eyes.  I groan and feel the spring heat from my window that I opened last night. I stretch and then turn to where Troye would be sleeping. I touch the sheets and feel the pain in my chest. I slowly roll out of bed and get dressed. I throw an extra sweater in my bag.  So if I get cold then I can use it. I walk down the stairs with my bag in my hands. I have my guitar in my hands as well. I need to go over the cords with Troye.  I then see my mom making some breakfast and that's when I get a call that will change everything. 

Call from Troye.  I answer it.

"Troye?" I ask threw the phone. "Con.." I hear gasps and people yelling and screaming. "Troye what's wrong? Where are you?" I ask and then walk out of the distance from my mom. "It..... it's....." Troye cries. "Hey listen to me. Breathe. Tell me where you are and I'll come to you." I say and then leave my guitar.  "Hospital." Troye breathes out. "Okay I'll be there as soon as I can." I say and then I hear him groan and then hang up. "Mom drive me please to the hospital. I'll catch up on my homework later." I say and then she nods and then we run out to the car. She starts the car and my sister looks at me with sad eyes. I give her a nod. "What is going on?" My mom asks. "Troye.  He is at the hospital I don't know why. But he is." I say and she drives as fast as she can. I bite my nails as I wait for the hospital.  I bite my lip as I see the hospital there. I see Troye pacing back and forth he falls to the ground a couple times and then stands up slowly weak. My mom parks and I jump out of the car. I run as fast as I can to him. His head down. Turned the other way.  I run to him and then yell his name. "Troye!" I yell and he turns around. I run and then as soon as I am close I throw my arms around him. Hugging him as tight as I can. I feel his face go into my neck. The tears slowly going down his face and hitting my neck. My arms grip to him as tight as I can. "Troye." I say and he whimpers into me. My backpack on my back still.  He shivers and I break the hug.  His face puffy and red. The tears falling. I wipe his face. "Breathe with me." I say and then take my sweater off and put it around him. "1, 2, 3." I say and then he follows my breathe. I see Sage walk out slowly. "Troye time to." She says and stops looking at me. "Connor. Um what are you?" She asks. "Troye called me and I am here for him. It's okay Sage." I say and she looks down. "I don't know if Troye could get it out, but it's our mom. She just collapsed this morning and we don't know what from." Sage says and I look at Troye and he slowly sinks to the ground. I kneel with him. "Okay Connor I'll go see how the rest of the family is." My mom says I nod and I hear Troye whimper out again. I move closer and sit on the ground. He sinks down more and falls into my lap. Hid face on my shoulder.  "Troye I am so sorry." I say and he whimpers out again. I rub his back as he cries into my shoulder.  I hold him as tight as I can. "Connor." I hear him say and then move up to look at me. "Mhhm?" I ask him. "Why did you come?" Troye asks.  "Because I still care. No matter what. I feel scared for you. Happy for you when you are happy.  Any emotion I feel it." I say and he sighs. "I already lost one parent I can't lose another one.  My mom." Troye says. I nod and then wipe his tears. He grips my sweater tighter. He looks down and touches my arms. The cuts that are there everyday. 3 weeks and every day I would do it. I then look up to him. "Suicide?" He asks me. I shake my head. "No. Not suicide. Thoughts though." I say and he looks back up. He slowly makes small circles on my arm.  "I am sorry this is happening." I say and he sighs. "Sorry for calling you. I just had no one else." Troye says I take his face. "Don't apologize Tro. I told you I am here for you. Cry, be angry, any emotion. I will let you feel. You need to." I say and he looks down.  "Yeah I know.  I just. I don't know.  I always get my hopes up and then I realize I must keep them small." Troye says. "I know Troye. I know. You are fragile. You hurt. Everyone does. You don't have to act tough around me." I say and he nods. "I just am scared of showing my feelings things will happen. I will get beat up for being sad. Tyler, Zoe they would hurt me of they realized that I am like this." Troye says. "You dont need them Troye.  You need me. I know you don't want to say that to yourself. But you need me. No matter what happens I'll be here for you. If we are not dating then I'll still be there for you." I say and then kiss his cheek. The second one of two days. This time this one means even more than the last.

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