Torn Between Two

Chapter 32

Troye

I kiss down Connor's neck. I hold him close. I need to make sure he isn't alone. I feel him fall asleep. I smile. He fell asleep on me while I was kissing him. That is adorable. I love that. I love him. Should I say it too him? Or should I leave it? I don't want to scare him away. I know it will if I tell him too soon. Does he even love me? Should I even care. He likes me that's what I should care about. I hear a knock at the door. I want to move but, I don't want to wake Connor up. "One second." I whisper. I slowly move his head off my arm. I move out of bed. "Noo cuddle." Connor whines. "I'll be back in a second baby." I coo to him. He rolls over and closes his eyes again. I go to the door. "Yeah?" I ask and see Nicola standing there. "I want to talk to Connor." She says trying to push past me. "He is sleeping you can't just come in and wake him up for what?" I say and she looks at me. "Shut it Mellet." Nicola says. "Like I said get out. He is sleeping. Don't bother him just because you need to talk." I say and she rolls her eyes. "Listen Mellet, Troye whatever you want me to call you. I have to talk to him about the fight we had that didn't involve you." Nicola says. She tries to push past me again. "You are not coming in." I say kind of rude. I just want her to fuck off. "It's not your room!" She yells. I cover her mouth. "Shut up he is sleeping. This isn't your room either. I want you to leave. If he is up to talking later then he will. You can't force him to talk." I growl at her. I want her to leave me be! I want her to leave Connor be! I want her to fuck off. I want to say it but, I don't want her to hate me. "What I expected to happen. His girlfriend or boyfriend would take him away from his real family. Cool whatever I don't care anymore." Nicola says and backs up with her hands in the air. "I tried. I don't give a shit anymore." Nicola says and closes her door. I close my eyes and close the door. I hear Connor groan a little. I sigh and then put my head against the door. Why does she even care. She has never been there for Connor when he needed her most. She has just wanted attention since I was in his life. She is trying to pick a fight with me because she wants Connor to hate me. Go side with her. Because he might? She is family. Family comes first. I always think that sometimes. With my father I really don't care if he comes dead last after what he has done to me. I just hate how she will pressure him into choosing. I know he might not choose me. But I don't want to make it hard on him. "Tro who was there?" Connor mumbles out. "It was just your brother checking up on us." I say and lie through my teeth. He can't know about this not now. Not when he is trying to get happy again. "I want cuddles." Connor says and pouts opening his arms. "Alright let me use the washroom and I'll be right back." I say and then he nods. He closes his eyes again. He faces the door and I know he is waiting for me to come and cuddle him. I walk to the bathroom and splash water on my face. I need to calm down. I need to calm down fast. So he doesn't notice my stress. I dry my face and look in the mirror.

I have looked better. I have seen myself worse. Right now, I don't know what I look like. Messy hair, some bags under my eyes. The rest of my face is a light shade of pink. I close my eyes. Happy thoughts Troye. The voices hasn't come since I have hung out with Connor. That's a good thought. Right? No voices ruining my life telling me what to do. I slowly walk back down the hall. I am stopped by someone. I turn around. "Troye." Brandon says. "Yeah?" I ask trying to sound happy. Not wanting to attract too much attention. "What's up you look stressed?" Brandon asks. "No I am good man but thanks for asking." I say and he nods. "Is Connor all good?" Brandon asks. Why is he acting weird. "Yeah he is just sleeping, why?" I ask worried what is wrong with Brandon. "Oh just wondering. So I overheard Nicola's conversation with Connor and you? That you used to bully him?" Brandon asks. "Umm long ago yes but, we have put that behind us." I say and he nods. "Okay. I was just worried for my brother that's all." Brandon says. I nod and then he walks away. What is up with the Franta family? They are acting weird. Nicola is being a bitch. Brandon acting weird around me. I have done nothing wrong to them. I guess Brandon was just worried. I understand that. I slowly walk into the room. I hear Connor mumble something. I lock the door and walk over to the bed. He has taken my spot so I walk over to the other side of the bed. He mumbles something again. I know he is asleep, so he must be dreaming. I slide over and put the blanket up over him. I then listen to any other mumbles. Nothing. I slowly move over to him. "Tro." He mumbles out. I smile a little. I put my arms around him and bring my waist to him. To keep him warm. Safe and make sure he knows I am here for him. For him I would do anything for him. He then jumps a little. "It's okay I am here." I whisper to him. He moves a little and then slowly mumbles something else. "Troye don't leave me ever." Connor mumbles out. He is still asleep. I decide to respond. "I won't baby I won't leave you." I say and he breathes out. I kiss the back of his neck lightly. "I love you." I whisper. He doesn't respond so I close my eyes. "You love me?" He asks and I jump a little. "You heard that." I mumble out. "Yeah." Connor says. I clench up. I just told Connor Franta I love him. Is he going to run? Or is he going to stay? I don't know. "Troye stop worrying. I want to tell you something too." Connor says. I stop breathing for a minute. "I love you Troye Sivan Mellet as well. I was just too scared to admit it." Connor whispers out. "You do?" I ask. "Yeah madly in love even though it's been two days." Connor says. I smile. Then kiss his lips. "Time to do homework." He mumbles into the kiss. "Ugh." I say and then touch his cheek as he sits up and walks to his bag. "I had a dream that you and Nicola were fighting." Connor says out of nowhere. I shut my mouth. He can't know. I know that he is my boyfriend but, this will not be told. His sister I think is just doing this to get back at Connor for not being there?

I have no clue. I just know I need to lie and pretend I get along with Nicola for him. For Connor. "That's weird." I say and he grabs my bag and passes it to me while I grab my math. Connor sits down on the bed and cuddles up next to me while we do our math. For a while we are silent writing down math questions and doing them. Occasionally checking our phones for notifications, or anything that pops up on our screen of our phone. Connor decided to put one earbud in his ear. He hits play and starts to hum while I listen to him hum. I zone out doing some math. "Troye?" Connor asks moving towards me more. "Yeah?" I ask worried he has something bad to tell me. "What did you get for this damn question. I really hate it. I just can't get the formula." Connor says. I look at my previous questions. I don't mind this at all actually. This is great having someone to help me with certain questions, I find question 5. "Yeah hold on." I say and look at the question. I scratch my head and then totally remember what I did. "Yeah you take that number and put it into the formula, then you solve it and you should get 56." I explain. He nods then puts the number into his formula. I watch him write down the math. "Oh wait. You missed something. You have to square root it baby." I say and then erase the one part and then put the right number. "Oh right shit." He says. He then finishes it. I go back into my work. "Yes I did it!" He says and puts his pencil down and kisses my cheek. "Thank you!" He says and then kisses the end of my lip. I smile while I finish mine. I then remember we have to do some science. I go through Connor's bag and find his science binder. "Once you are done we can work on this." I say and he nods. "Boys dinner!" His mom calls. I set the binder down. Connor looks at me with worry. "One step at a time."I say and kiss his cheek.He throws my sweater on and we start to walk to the dining room as Nicola cuts Connor off. "Hey Connor can we chat?" Nicola asks. I stare right at her with death in my eyes. I don't want her talking to Connor. She doesn't just get to do that. I hate her for that. She will damage him. "We are going to eat." I say as nice as I can. "Yeah he can after I talk to him." Nicola says. I shake my head. "You will just make him hate you more. Or not like you at the least." I say. "Guys stop. Troye is right. I really hate that you want to date my enemy. What did you want to talk about. Whatever you want to talk about Troye comes." Connor says. Holding my hand tight. "No I need to talk alone without him there. And it's not about Marcus and my dating." Nicola says to Connor. He lets go of my hand. Nicola leads him downstairs. I see her smirk while I watch Connor slowly go into an emotional death hole. Called his sister.