Torn Between Two

Chapter 44

Connor

I slowly roll out of bed and feel the pain in my stomach. Everywhere hurts badly. I just want to walk to school. I don't want to see Troye. I get a message from him.

Troye: Babe, please answer me.

I just ignore it completely. I get dress and grab a sweater. Then make sure I have everything for my next exam. I grab my bag and walk out the door. "Connor you already missed the buss." My mom says behind me. "Oh can you drive me?" I ask and she nods. "Sorry slept in I guess." I say lying. Knowing for a fact I wanted to miss the bus. My mom drives me. "You and Troye okay?" She asks. The touches my face at the red light. "Your nose as well." She says angry. "Yeah I hit my face on my locker I slipped and Troye laughed then realized it wasn't funny when I hurt my nose." I say she nods. I sigh and look out the window. Listening to the car radio. I hear the radio guy say something. "Guys a quick word from someone who sent a tweet to us. From @JamieHandt Never let love slip away, never let one wrong thing go to heart. Sure love is hard but that's what you need to do. Let the small things that happened go and have a fun life. Thank you Jamie for adding that for today. Have a great day everyone. Now here is a song called Scars To Your Beautiful By: Alessia Cara. Have a good day guys!" The announcer says and the song comes on. Then I see the school. I sigh. "Have a good day." My mom says and kisses my hand. "Thanks mom." I say and then open the car. I walk into the school and walk to my locker. I hear a voice behind me. "Connor, oh my god. Babe, are you alright?" Troye asks scared and he hugs me tightly, sobbing into my shoulder. ""I'm fine. Great. It's a-all fine. I have to go." I say pushing him off me and walking away. "W-what? C-con?" Troye says confused. He grabs my hand and pulls me back. "What's wrong?" Troye asks me. I can't tell him. I look down from his eyes. To his neck. "..Who- who gave you those?" I ask looking at the marks on his neck. "Hm?" Troye asks tiling my head to the side. "Those hickeys. Are those mine?" I ask confused. "I- I meant to tell you, Connor. Tyler... Tyler gave me them. He forced me into it. He was going to hurt you. I can't let that happen." Troye tries to explain. I ignore the last part. He is cheating on me. With Tyler? What? Why? After everything he told me. We did things!

"You're cheating on me?" I say and rip my hand out of his in shock. "N-no! Con, you have to understand. I didn't have a choice. He was going to hurt you! Connor, please!" Troye tries to explain. "After all we've done. You've cheated on me! I can't believe you, Troye! I thought you wanted forever!" I spit out at him. He is cheating on me. After the weekend we had! "Are you.. Are you breaking up with me?" Troye is taken back. I have no clue. Am I? Or just space. I need him. I will die without him. "No. I need space. Away from you." I say and push him away. I walk away from him. I see Tyler walking down the hall. I feel the tears falling down my face. Tyler puts his foot out and I fall. He laughs I see him walking towards Troye. I follow him slowly. I see Troye hurt. I just did that. I see Tyler go up to him. Troye with pain in his eyes. I can hear everything clearly behind everyone else here.

"Troye!"

"T-tilly?" Troye asks. Tilly what the hell. He calls him a cute name too? What no he is cheating on me. I can't believe him. He used me for sex! Or more than that! He used me!

"What was.. What was that with Franta?" Tyler asks Troye. Troye looks scared to answer. "Nothing." Troye replies low.

"Oh my God. Did he just break up with you?" Tyler asks all happy like. I bite my lip I did not.

"Y-yes, no. Kind of. I don't know. It's all your fault, Tyler!" Troye yells and tries to walk away. Then Tyler grabs his wrist and twists it. I want to stop him now. Even though I need space. "O-oh," Troye gasps in pain.

"Yell at me again, and you'll get a lot more of that," Tyler says. I close my eyes no. Don't believe this it's all a dream . "You used to be one of us, Troye. What happened?" Tyler asks more sad now. He fell in love? I ask myself.

"I fell in love," Troye says. I look up. He did? "And not with someone who treats me like scum. Someone who just wants me for sex. Someone like you." Troye snaps at him. He is being sweet about me even after that? What? He doesn't like Tyler?

"You think I want you for sex? Troye, I love you. Not for sex." Love him! Go kill him now! No one can love Troye except me!

"You're lying. I know you are. What do you call those?" he points at Tyler's neck, littered with hickeys. "That's what you wanted me to do." Troye says and I close my eyes. Please Troye hate him.

"It's not! You can't seriously think that?" Tyler snaps at him. "Tyler, I think you're the slut here." Troye fires back.

Tyler hits Troye across the cheek. I whimper for him. "What did you just call me?" Tyler asks taken back.

"A slut. S-l-u-t." Troye says. He punches Troye in the face. Go stop him Connor! You can't want him get hurt like this! Tell someone! A teacher! You stop him! He holds his jaw tight. "You could be popular again, Troye. If you were with me, everyone would love you again." Tyler says. me! I am He moves closer to him. "I don't want that." Troye mumbles out. He gets hit again in the face. I had it! He needs help. I walk forward. "He fell in love with me! He fell in love with someone who doesn't treat him like shit! Troye fell in love with someone who never thought would ever be loved! He gave him a chance! He helped him! For 3 months this has happened you hurting him! You hurting me! I am tired of it! Tyler you need to learn when someone is taken! When someone is not taken! He is taken! Sure I may not seem like something to you! But to him! I am his everything and he is my everything! So you need to leave and fuck off! I hate you! He hates you! You do this to him!" I yell at him touching his neck!

"That is not love Tyler you have no clue what love is!" I yell at him. "No clue. Making him give you hickies for no reason and he is trying to protect me! That is real love! Protecting each other! Yes I had to do things to not let him get him protected but, that's what love is! Love is something you don't take for granted. So now if you don't fuck off I will kill you!" I yell and then take Troye's hand.

"I will tell a teacher I swear to god!" I yell at him. He looks at me. Then puts his arms up. He walks off like nothing happened. I let go of Troye's hand. Then turn to him. "Are you okay?" I ask him out of breath. "Are you?" He asks me. "No I'm talking about you." I say and then touch his cheek with the bruise. I look at his jaw where Tyler hit him. I look into his blue eyes. "You still love me?" Troye asks. I don't answer right away. "Troye. I never said I didn't love you. I was just..." I say not bothering what to say. I look at him. "I touch his neck. "He kisses me." Troye mumbles out. I shake my head. "It's okay." I say and he looks into my green eyes. "Can you do me a favour?" I ask Troye. "Yeah anything." Troye says. "Kiss me?" I ask him. He smiles a little. "Now those are the lips I want to kiss." Troye says. He leans in and kisses my lips. For a while we stay like that. I break it. "What have we gotten ourselves into Mellet?" I ask him hugging him. "I have no clue Franta." Troye says. I just breath in his sent needing it right now.