Torn Between Two

Chapter 58

Troye

As the days go by. Connor gets better. His talk with the counselor went good. He didn't tell her everything but, she knows things about me. His physio was bad. He was in so much pain. Now it is Friday night and he is in bed while I am getting him some coffee and we watch movies. Tomorrow is the party and I am very scared. I know I won't take a sip of alcohol. I know that I have to keep an eye out for Connor so I won't take a sip but, Tyler is there so I might have to keep a big eye out for him. He wants something from me and I am very scared of what he wants. I know he wouldn't just invite us to a party without something up his sleeves. Maybe he is being nice but, I highly doubt that he would be nice and not want something from me. That is how it always goes right? He wants something from me when he is nice.

Flashback

"Troye come here for a second." Tyler calls out to me. He wants me to kiss him doesn't he. I know what he is like. In his home. I bet he just wants to fuck me. I would never ever be able to say no to that. I am so glad he hasn't asked me that.

"Yeah?" I ask nicely. "Sit okay?" Tyler asks and I sit down waiting for what he has to say.

"I just wanted to see how you are." Tyler says. "You do since when?" I ask and he smiles and moves closer to me. "I always want to know if you are okay." Tyler says. "Okay well umm yeah I am fine." I say and he smiles. "Great cause there is a party and you are coming." Tyler says and sits back. I should have known he was working his way up to be rude to me. He wanted something from me. I am such a bad human can I just die! I want to die! I don't want to get drunk again! I don't want to get hurt and go to the hospital!

Flashback done.

I snap out of my trance and I hear someone calling my name. "Troye are you okay?" My mom asks. "Yeah I am fine sorry. Just thinking for a bit." I say lying. I don't want the hospital again. "Yeah I am fine thanks though mom." I say and then finish making his coffee and put it in a travel mug and then slowly walk up the stairs into our room.

I hate the thoughts of Tyler being nice to me now. He wants to do something at the party doesn't he. Yeah he does!I just can't figure out what. I just don't want him to hurt my Connor. I don't care about me I am used to his abuse. I am used to what he has done to me. I am just worried for what he will do to Connor. I make it to the room and open the door slowly. I look in the room to see Connor slowly drifting to and from sleep. I walk in and sit on the bed and touch his face for a second. He shoots up and looks at me. "It's okay it's just me." I say to him, he exhales his breath. "Thank you." Connor says. I hand him the cup of coffee. "2 cream? With the coffee I like?" Connor asks. "Of course." I say and get under the covers. He takes a sip then holds it while I turn on the laptop. "What movie?" I ask and Connor thinks for a minute. "Moana?" Connor says like a little kid. "Okay." I say quietly and then search the movie up. I find it and then click on it. The movie slowly starts and Connor cuddles closer to my chest for cuddles. I put my arm around his shoulder. This movie has a very good message to whoever watches it. It means don't give up just at the moment. Sure your life is hard, people will not let you do certain things. But when you finally have the courage to do something it will turn out for the best. Just like me asking Connor if he wanted to date me. Sure it was a hard thing to do but, it happened and now we are happier than ever. Every minute Connor takes a sip of his coffee. Although it is only 5 pm and we have homework to do. We watch the movie until it ends. I shed a couple tears. The ending always gets me. I know that it's just a movie, it just gets me. Connor sits up a little and then wipes his face.

"You too?" Connor asks and wipes my tears off my face. "Yeah. The ending hurts but, it's so good. Good choice baby." I say and then he kisses my nose. "Will always be my favorite movie of all time for now." Connor says. I smile and then he gets up slowly and then grabs our bags. I smile when he puts it on the bed. "So well you know how we have to do something for music and vocal. Well my guitar I guess I could practice on whenever I go home and maybe you could sing?" Connor asks. Wait he wants me to sing in front of people. "Connor I have never sang in front of people." I say and look down. "Hey look at me." Connor says and lifts my head. "If you sing like you normal do to me. You will do fine. You can look at me when you sing it. I know it may be scary but, trust me on this when I say you have such a good voice baby." Connor says and then comes closer to me. "I will have to think about it." I say and he nods. "I guess we could come up with the lyrics whenever and then I will follow your lead with guitar." Connor says. I nod and then he sets his other book down. "English." Connor says and then opens my binder. "Yeah we have to do a report." I say and he nods. "Yeah on what?" Connor asks and looks at the choices. "On Moana. There is a choice to do it on a movie. We can work together. I know it's group work." Connor says getting excited. I smile and then he writes it down on the page. "Okay so let's do this." I say. For a while we work on the paper due in a week. Then after a while. Connor writes down some things on my laptop. Pretty much just typing the whole thing out. Spelling, grammar, you know the same old same old. I then pick up my paper and my other binder and start to write. I know I zone out for a while with no interruptions. "What you doing?" Connor asks me resting his head on my shoulder. "Umm I am trying to make a song?" I ask myself. "Can I hear what you have?" Connor asks. I scratch the back of my neck and then close my eyes. "I have never really shown anyone what I have written but, sure okay. One second." I say and then sit myself up. I open my page up and then breathe out. "I don't have a beat but, I don't know I will talk it." I say. I close my eyes and then start to talk it. I don't have much but, it will do.

"I smell heartbreak on my hands I feel sick to my stomach as I begin to stand. I see the outline in my bed the same spot I watched him rest his head. And then you roll I regret it I write this song trying to forget it." I say and then I open my eyes and then look down. "Connor?" I ask and then he tackles me into a hug. "Troye you are so good. Yes this is beautiful! Ahhh." Connor says and then kisses me hard. "Thank you. I just thought of it. I don't know. It will be so hard to do up in front of people. Like it was to do to you. Let alone other people." I say and Connor nods. "I know baby I know." Connor says and then helps me sit up again. "I love you and we will do so good. I know your voice and you know your voice. People will want you to sing all the time to them. But, your voice is mine." Connor says and then kisses my neck a little. For a while we have a very big makeout sessions. Then we have some neck kisses. Back clawing. Then finally it gets the time where we have to sleep. "Goodnight." I whisper to Connor. "Goodnight my baby." Connor says and then touches my neck to look at the marks. "Yup sure did a number." Connor says and then rests his head on my chest. "That you did." I say and then feel the sleep take over my vision. Like when you add red and blue to pain it makes a nice purple. If you accidently add black everything changes. My life is changing and I think it is in a good way I hope.

"Guys we need to go shopping!" Sage knocks on the door. "Ahh fuck off!"I mumble loudly back. "We have to go shopping for the party tonight. You have 30 minutes to get your asses up and come to the mall." Sage calls back. Connor closes his eyes and rolls away from me. Close to the edge. But before he could move away. I stop him and grab him by the waist and pull him closer to me. "No don't leave." I mumble into his hair. "Troye baby we have to get up. I know you don't like shopping but, we can make it fun. We get new clothes. We don't have to pay for them." Connor says. I sigh and then kiss his neck a little to get his attention off of getting up. It works for a while and I smile and then Connor pulls away. "God that was hard to do, I know what you want to do. But we have to go now. Later that can happen before the party if we have time." Connor says and then gets out of bed. "Ughh." I groan and roll out of bed. I grab some clothes to wear and then through my pajamas on the bed and we walk out. Connor slowly walking being careful of what will happen around him. "You all ready?" Sage asks. "Yeah sure am." Connor says and rubs his eyes. "Oh you will enjoy it. Mom is letting us get new clothes it will be fun come on!" Sage says and runs out the door. We get our shoes and walk out. "I call the AUX cord for this ride!" Sage yells. We both groan. "If you play shit music I will jump out of the car into oncoming traffic." I say and then Connor laughs. "No way you will be the first. It will be me and then you would come after." Connor says and then gets in the car. "Oh shut up!" Sage says and sticks her tongue out at me. I laugh a little. "Ready guys?" My mom asks all us. "Yeah as ready as I will ever be!" Connor says and then puts his face into my shirt. Connor has been more open to the world with his scars. He wears short sleeve around everyone in my family and his parents don't know just yet. They will soon. Connor will have to tell them I can't do that. "I can't wait to go to so many clothing stores. I love Urban Outfitters." Sage says. "God I love their clothing line it's my favorite. I wish I could design clothes and put them in that store oh my god my dream other than becoming a photographer." Connor says I smile at his little dream of his. I will support him all the way.

"You will and you can." I say to him and then for a while we listen to music. Sometimes we wanted to cry from how bad the music was but most of it was okay. We make it to the mall. "Okay guys. I am giving you guys 1000 dollars each. Don't spend it all. I want some back. But, you have to get something for tonight's party." My mom says. I smile and then we take the card. "Alright deal." Sage says and then runs out of the car into the mall. "Bye mom thank you." I say and she smiles. "Thank you Laurelle." Connor says and looks at the card. "I have never done this before." Connor says. "I will show you don't worry." I say and he nods. We get out and get ready for our adventures that comes to await us!

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