Niall Horan Child Preferences Book 2

#59 You die giving birth

In this imagine you died giving birth to your first child

3rd person POV

"We need to talk some sense into him, he can't ignore his baby forever and we can't raise her, he should" Harry said to the other two boys and Niall's mum, glancing at his bests friends 1 week old baby sleeping in her Moses basket without a care in the world.
"Is he even in the right state to look after a baby?" Liam asked.
"Probably not, he's depressed but maybe stepping up and raising his daughter will make him feel a little better. It's going to take a long time for him to get over y/n's death but he can't ignore her" Louis explained gesturing to the baby

"I'll go speak to him" Maura said leaving the room. She walked upstairs to Niall's bedroom and knocked on the door lightly.
"Niall, sweetie please open the door and let me talk to you" Maura said softly.
Niall recognised her voice instantly. She was here when the baby was born but had to fly back to Ireland for work. She's back now but he didn't want to open the door.

"Please Nialler, this isn't healthy, just open the door, I promise, it's only me" Maura said softly.

Niall unlocked the door , letting his mother in the room and closing the door behind her.

He sat down on the bed next to her, tears still streaming down his face.
Maura took a look at her sons state. She knew he hadn't showered,nor shaved, his hair was a mess, he had the same clothes he had on at the hospital and his eyes were red and puffy from all the crying.

"C'mere baby" Maura whispered pulling her son into her embrace. She felt his tears on her shoulder.
"I can't live without her mum" he sobbed. Seeing her son crying and upset broke Maura's heart.

"Niall, just listen and hear me out okay?" She said looking at him and he nodded.

"Niall, I understand you're upset and you have every right to be upset about what happened to y/n, but you have a daughter Niall. That little baby girl needs you and for the week she has been here you have ignored her and blamed her for y/n's death. You can't do that Niall. You've probably not even held her or named her. You can't ignore her all her life, just please step up Niall, be the better man and raise her" Maura pleaded.

Niall just sat staring at the ground taking in his mothers words. She was right.
"I'm sorry, I..I it's just part of me thinks that if it wasn't for her y/n would still be here..I know I shouldn't think that but I can't help it" Niall admitted.
"Is that why you've ignored her?" Maura asked her brown haired son.
He nodded , fresh tears coming to his eyes.
"She looks exactly like you, you know?" Maura told Niall. Niall smiled slightly for the first time that week.

"Can you try for me, Niall? Try to step up and look after her?" Maura asked.
"I have no choice, she's my responsibility" Niall said his eyes still red and puffy from the crying earlier.
"Please don't say it in that way, you make it sound like you don't want her Niall." Maura pleaded.

"Now just go have a shower, get yourself sorted and I'll be waiting here." Maura told Niall.

He got up and went to the bathroom. He showered , shaved and did his hair in a quiff and changed into some clean clothes.

He walked back into his bedroom where his mum was waiting for him.
His mum engulfed him in a hug. "Now let's go see your daughter" she said pulling away from the hug.

They both went Down stairs into the living room were the boys were. Niall noticed the little baby swaddled in a pink blanket with a pink hat on her head in Louis' arms.

The boys noticed Niall in the room and Louis turned around placing the baby into his arms.
Niall looked down at his daughter in his arms and instantly fell in love.
He no longer felt hatred towards her and no longer felt like she was to blame for his wife's death.
His mums words were true, she did look him. Same blue eyes, same brown hair, same lips but y/n's nose. The same nose he loved to kiss at any time , wether that was during the day or the middle of the night.
He tried to not think about y/n, he knew he would break down again.

He continued to admire the baby in his arms. The baby that was half him and half y/n. The baby that was now his responsibility no matter what happens . He had to protect to her which he knows he will. He'd never want to let his precious daughter down.

"I love you" he mumbled pressing his lips to her tiny forehead as she closed her eyes , falling asleep in her fathers arms.