Niall Horan Child Preferences Book 2

#131 He dies

Your POV

Niall had died 1 week ago exactly. He had a heart problem that was unnoticed by doctors even though he went to regular check ups. The day he died he was complaining about his chest hurting. He went to the studio as usual and collapsed there. The boys took him to hospital and told me. I went to the hospital and took Maura and Bobby with me. That's when we received the devastating news about his passing. For the past week I've been grieving and trying to be the best mother for our 3 children.

We have 5 year old twins together, Ethan and Aaliyah and we have a 1 year old baby girl named Isabelle. They all look so much like him and remind me of him. I will never remarry. I loved him so much,I can never love anyone who isn't him.

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Today I had an interview with James Corden to talk about Niall and celebrate his life and talk about what actually happened.

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I smiled sadly at Maura as I arrived at her house. She returned my smile with a sad smile herself.
I handed mine and Niall's baby girl over to her and Ethan and Aaliyah walked into the house.

"How are you?" Maura asked. I sighed sadly. "Just wish he was still here, in grieving and trying to be a good mum and I ..I just don't know how to do it all on my own" I admitted sadly. "If you ever need anything y/n, I'm always here, I think of you as a daughter I never had, you made my baby boy so happy and I can't thank you enough for that" she said.

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I was sat on the sofa opposite James Corden ready to talk about My amazing husband.

"So I understand this must be a very difficult time for you, so if there is a question you don't feel comfortable answering just say" James said and I nodded.

"So what was the reason of his death? As it isn't normal for young adults to just pass away suddenly" James said.
I took in a deep breath.
"H..he had a heart problem. It was unnoticed by docotrs despite him going to every checkup and appointment. It was only noticed during the post-mortem exam which was too late to do anything" I said sadly fidgeting with my hands.

"You and Niall have 3 children together, what's it like looking after them on your own without his help and support?" James asked.

"I..I try my best to be the best mother I can for them but I'm just so upset and depressed over everything and stressed because of the children and everything just getting too much for me" I admitted.
"I.i just need him with me..i miss him..I..I'm" I said sniffling as I felt the tears come to me.

"I'm sorry" I whispered as I let the tears escape my eyes.
"Aww" the audience said sincerely.
"I just..I don't know what to do without him, his family's offered to help me with the kids but I just need him, I just need Niall" I cried. I let out a sob.
"I'm so so sorry" I apologised and ran off stage .

As soon as I went backstage I cried . I looked through my camera roll all the the photos of me and Niall. I sobbed looking at them. James came behind me.
He engulfed me in a hug. It was good to have a friend that wasn't one of the boys.

"I'm sorry about the interview" I apologised.
"It doesnt matter, you're grieving it was stupid and selfish of me to ask you to talk about him a week after everything happened but you need to talk to people about it, you can't bottle you're feelings up" he said.

"I..I don't know what to do James, o can't look after two 5 year olds and a baby on my own. They all remind me so much of him, it brings back so many memories" I admitted wiping my tears.

"Like you said, Niall's family has offered to help you, but isn't it a good thing that your kids remind you so much of him?" James said and I shrugged. "I guess" I said.