Lost in our imagination (The Vamps FanFiction)

75 - New Home

June 2014

Katie P.O.V

1 month. It's been 1 whole month since I've moved to Australia and things have been a lot harder than I could of ever imagined. Sure its always hot here and the beaches are amazing but apart from that this place has nothing that London doesn't have.

The academy is okay I guess, the dance department is amazing like Sarah said but its hard work and I have had a lot to catch up on, luckily my teachers and class mates are nice but I'm not interested in making any new friends. The only bad thing about the academy is that its not just a dance academy, it teaches English, Electronics, Psychology and everything in between so its a lot larger and a lot more crowded than what I'm used to. I think I've finally managed to figure out where everything is but there have been countless times where I've got lost and been late to class.

My new apartment isn't too bad, its quite small and I share it with another girl, Sophie, I think her name is but shes never around so that's good, she seems nice though. I spend most of my free time in my apartment on Skype with Livi or the boys or George, in fact I've spoken to pretty much everyone I knew in London, everyone apart from Brad. Hes the one person I'd like to talk to, to make sure he's okay. I havent seen him in 6 weeks, in fact I haven't even spoken to him in 6 weeks and its killing me. I have spent countless days in the past month either crying or just isolating myself from everyone and everything because I'm not happy anymore. He was the one person who could make me smile and even if I was having the worst day, he would tell me that everything would be okay, and I believed him. I love him. I still don't understand why he never came to say goodbye, I know that he was hurt because I ended things and I know he gave me a chance but I gave him a chance too by forgiving him. He cheated on me and I forgave him instantly, not because he told me too, or because I needed too, I did it because I wanted too and if I hadn't of then I would never of forgiven myself.

Its weird not living with Livi anymore, I'm used to her having to literally drag me out of bed and then constantly moaning at me because I always make us late and most of the time refuse to leave the house if I don't need to. That includes taking Oscar for walks, I always made up the excuse that I had work to do. I like having someone I knew to walk to class with or even be in the same class as but now I don't have anyone. Sometimes I enjoy the piece and quiet as it gives me a lot of time to think and do things for myself but most of the time I hate it. I hate not knowing what she's up too and I know we keep in contact but its only once or twice a week if we can, plus the time difference makes it all the more difficult. I always seem to know what the boys are up too because if they're not texting me about it then all I have to do is go on twitter and I pretty much know what they're doing every second of every day. I guess the best way to describe it is that I miss them, I miss everything about every single one of them and I just wish that I didn't have to go all the way to the other side of the world to keep doing what I love. Or thought that I loved.

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"See you Monday girls" my choreography teacher said as she dismissed us from the last class of the day.

After leaving the dance studio I quickly grabbed my bag from my locker inside the changing rooms before walking across campus towards my apartment. I practically ran up the flights of stairs and once I was finally inside I threw down my bag before sitting down on my bed and turning on my laptop.

"Long time no see" Livi smiled as her face appeared on my screen.

"I know and I'm sorry, its just been really busy at the acadamy lately."

"Its been 6 days since I spoke to you last."

"Believe me, I know."

"Anyways what have you been up too?"

"Oh you know just hanging out in my room and sometimes going down to the beach."

"Katie you seriously need to get out and do something."

"Why?"

"Because you've been there a month now and the most exciting thing you've done is go on a bike ride."

"I'll have you know that was very exciting, I got to see alot of amazing tourists attractions."

"Thats not the point."

"Yeah I know" I sighed.

"Anyways how was America, Spain, Italy and wherever else you went?" I asked.

"Well I only went with them to America because I wasn't allowed any more time off but that was fun."

"That's good."

"Yeah apart from Brads no fun anymore, he refuses to do anything and it's been ages since I've seen him properly laugh or smile."

"He'll be okay soon, it's just taking time for us to both get used to not being with each other."

"That's the thing though Katie, I don't think he will be, I've never seen him this down about anything."

"I do feel bad about it but you know that I had to end things and hopefully soon he will realise that too."

"Let's hope so, have you spoken to him?"

"Nope!"

"What not at all."

"Nope, it's been like 6 weeks or something like that."

"I'll get James to go get him and you can speak to him."

"No Livi it's fine you don't...."

"James get Brad" Livi shouted.

"Why?" He replied.

"Because I'm talking to Katie and he needs to speak to her."

"Okay!"

"He should be down in a minute" Livi said to me.

"I don't know if I want to talk to him."

"You love him right?"

"Well yeah."

"Then you need to speak to him and sort this out."

"Fine but..." I started to say but stopped as I heard brad and James walk into the room.

"No I don't want to" Brad snapped.

"Just talk to her" James replied.

"I told you I don't want to now leave me alone."

"It's been ages though Brad and you need too."

"No I don't and beside she doesn't want to talk to me either so I don't know why I should bother."

"You could at least try!"

"What's the point? I bet she's already found someone else and she told me herself that she didn't want to be with me anymore or have anything to do with me so I'd rather not put myself through rejection again."

"You don't know that, she could have changed her mind."

"Why would she? besides I don't love her anymore and you don't know anything about what happened between us so mind your own business and let me do what I want" brad shouted before walking out the room slamming the door shut.

"Katie I...I didn't..." Livi stuttered.

"It's fine, I knew this was coming so I'd rather it happened sooner rather than later" I replied.

"I'm sorry."

"It's fine, I best get going, speak to you soon" I said to Livi before ending the call and closing down my laptop screen.

I threw my laptop to the end of my bed and led down with the pillow over my face and cried.

I didn't realise brad would be that reluctant to speak to me. Why would he think id already found someone else? He should no that I could never do that to him, I dont think its possible for me to picture myself with anyone other than Brad. The part that hurt me the most though is that he said he didnt love me anymore, I knew that at some point he'd have to move on but I didnt think it would happen so soon. I havent moved on, I still love him and if only I could tell him that.