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All Of The Stars

Edrake's POV

I'm slowly drowning from my thoughts. It's like I'm on the vast ocean with no sign of help. I asked myself, is this all worth it? Well, I couldn't answer that if I will not try. At the end of the day, whatever the result is, it is all my fault. The blame is on me. And I guess, I'm used to that.

I grabbed my guitar and immediately walked on the small cottage near the shore. The wind is cold but it is nothing compared to my heart right now. I need warmth, I need love.

I let a deep sigh before strumming the guitar and started singing. This is my safe zone. Just me and my guitar.

Dane's POV

Nakatanaw ako sa bintana dito sa kwarto ko ng maaninag ng aking mga mata ang pigura ni Edrake na patungo sa cottage malapit dun sa tabing dagat, may bitbit siyang gitara. Patago ko siyang pinagmasdan kahit 'di niya naman ako nakikita kasi nakatalikod siya sakin. Okay na rin yun no, para atleast, safe kung lilingon man siya.

Ilang sandali pa at inumpisahan na niyang tugtugin ang gitara niya. Mataman niyang hinapit ang hibla ng mga strings sa gitara niya at tinugtog ang isang napakagandang kanta.

[ All of the Stars - Ed Sheeran ]

🎶
It's just another night
And I'm staring at the moon
I saw a shooting star
And thought of you

I sang a lullaby
By the waterside and knew
If you were here,
I'd sing to you

You're on the other side
As the skyline splits in two
I'm miles away from seeing you
I can see the stars
From America
I wonder, do you see them, too?

So open your eyes and see
The way our horizons meet
And all of the lights will lead
Into the night with me
And I know these scars will bleed
But both of our hearts believe
All of these stars will guide us home
🎶

Ramdam kong buong puso niya itong inaawit at ngayon ko lang napagtanto na tagos pala ang liriko ng kantang ito. Gustuhin ko mang mamangha sa pagpapahiwatig ng kanyang emosyon pero natatabunan ito ng galit at puot. Hindi ko alam kung bakit patuloy ko pa rin itong naramdaman. Alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko ugali ang magtanim ng galit pero dahil na rin sa mga nangyari sa buhay ko, maiintindihan niyo naman siguro ako diba?

Tatlong tao na ang umalis sa buhay ko ng walang paalam o pasabi, kahit na bumalik man sila, hindi na nito mawawala na minsan ay nasira nila ang tiwala ko sa kanila.

Una si Papa, sunod naman si Quen at pangatlo si Edrake. Siguro masasabi kong mas nasaktan ako kay Edrake kasi nagbitaw siya ng mga salitang pinanghawakan ko. Umasa ako, oo aminado akong akala ko ibang-iba siya sa lahat, pero isa rin pala siya sa bumitaw sakin.

🎶
I can hear your heart
On the radio beat
They're playing 'Chasing Cars'
And I thought of us

Back to the time,
You were lying next to me
I looked across and fell in love

So I took your hand
Back through lamp lit streets I knew
Everything led back to you
So can you see the stars?
Over Amsterdam
You're the song my heart is
Beating to

So open your eyes and see
The way our horizons meet
And all of the lights will lead
Into the night with me
And I know these scars will bleed
But both of our hearts believe
All of these stars will guide us home
🎶

Ang hirap, ang hirap magpigil ng nararamdaman pero ito lang ang tanging paraan na naiisip ko na nararapat. Bakit ko pa tatanggapin ang isang tao sa buhay ko at muling makapasok sa sistema ko kung minsan na niya akong iniwan? Parang ang laking tanga ko naman nun 'pag ginawa ko pa iyon.

🎶
And, oh, I know
And oh, I know, oh
I can see the stars
From America
🎶

Pasensiya kana Edrake pero hindi ko alam kung anong pakikitungo ang kaya kong ibigay sa'yo. Tawagin mo akong makasarili, okay lang, basta huwag lang akong masaktan ulit.

Umalis ako sa may bintana at humiga sa aking kama. Nakatingin lang ako sa kisame at pinapakinggan ang paghampas ng alon at mga kuliglig sa paligid. Nakalipas na ata ang isang oras pero hindi pa ako inaantok.

Edrake's POV

An hour have already passed but here I am, still crying my heart out. That song has a very special place in my heart. I sang that everytime I feel lonely and if I am missing her. The lyrics of the song taught me that I should look up to the stars and see the beauty of it. It says that if I'm looking at the stars, the person from the other side is also looking at the same stars. By that, even when we're far from each other, the stars serves as our medium to connect to each other.

I sighed. A tear escaped my eye again.

She's just a few steps away from me but it feels like we're trapped on a maze with million miles of distance. I can't reach her and I'm afraid to take action. I really am a coward. I don't care if I will be called one. I just don't want to give her the hard time and I will let fate do its thing. If it's really meant to be then it will really happen. No need for these forcing and hurting.

I just hope everything is just so easy. I will just give myself another one day, if nothing will happen then maybe its time to let go.

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Oh no, painumin niyo po ng Bonakid si Edrake, biliiiiis hahahahaha nawawalan na ng panlaban ang ating bata hahahaha happy reading 🙌💫