The Outsiders Imagines & One Shots & Preferences

Three - Hey Rachel // S.R.

Hey Rachel // S.R.

A decade's worth of damage done in unsaid words

We both know that's not what you deserved

There was always love, it was there but never spoken of

You held on when I was not enough

Even though I treated her like she didn't matter, she did. Of course she did! She was the most important person in my life.

It's a shame, this has taken me so long to say

It's time...

Hey Rachel, I'm sorry

I was younger and scared when you needed me

I was selfish and stubborn, a terrible brother

You don't have to forgive me

Hey Rachel, I'm sorry

"You didn't deserve those things I said, or things I did to you"

I always knew that I was responsible to guide you through

But I was blind when looking out for you

I was self-absorbed but I try not to be anymore

I put your diary back in your drawer

"I thought you were a tag-along. Like Ponyboy. And I didn't mean to hurt you when I read it, I just wanted to tease you a bit, and I felt like I didn't know you anymore."

It's a shame, this has taken me so long to say

...

Hey Rachel, I'm sorry

I was younger and scared when you needed me

I was selfish and stubborn, a terrible brother

You don't have to forgive me

Hey Rachel, I'm sorry

"I should've been better to you, and I'm tryna do right by you, by being better to Pony, like you always said I should be"

It's a shame this has taken me so long to say to you

"I didn't mean any of it"

Hey Rachel, I'm sorry

I was younger and scared when you needed me

I was selfish and stubborn, a terrible brother

You don't have to forgive me

Hey Rachel, I'm sorry

I was younger and scared when you needed me

I was selfish and stubborn, a terrible brother

You don't have to forgive me

No, you don't have to forgive me

Hey Rachel, I'm sorry

Hey Rachel, I'm sorry

I felt a hand squeeze my shoulder in a comforting manner, and I turned just enough to see Sodapop, my best bud, smile at me. Not his usual movie star smile, one of pity, sadness, and maybe even regret. I gave a small nod as I turned back to the large cement block

"Rachel Avery Randle

Beloved Sister and Daughter

January 12, 1950 – September 1, 1965"

And it was all my own damn fault.