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CHAPTER THIRTY NINE

*CHAPTER THIRTY NINE - YEEHAW BITCHES!
Sorry, I had to 😂😂
Anyways! I actually love this chapter! Whoooop! I've missed just a good ol' Bri's POV so majority of the chapter is that but the ending, ooh the ending is what I love the most!
Enjoy my beauties! 💕💕*

*BRIAN'S POV*
*One Week Later*
The day after we found out about my ectopic pregnancy was the day I had surgery to remove the fetus and my ovary. Penny said it was too damaged to try and heal so it was best to take it out then and there rather than have me need another surgery later on. I opted to keep the rest of my reproductive system for now, wanting to discuss things with Rog some more before making such a big decision. I could see us having more kids in the future, I could see myself marrying him and being with him for the rest of my life! I didn't want to make a rash decision and do something I'd regret later. I didn't want my choice to push him away (even if it is my body in the end).

"Why don't we invite Bri and Rog to come along?" I heard Freddie ask as I wandered towards the kitchen, stopping just by the door, being curious to hear where his conversation with John (I assume) was going.

"Oh because that's such a smart idea Fred, inviting them to shop for baby supplies when they've just been through this." John scoffed, his tone not so much harsh as it was condescending. "That's being really supportive." He added.

"I was only suggesting, no need to snap lovey." Freddie retorted. "I just thought them getting out of the house would do them well, that's all. Rog is spending a ridiculous amount of time locked away in their bedroom and I thought getting out might help them." He explained, actually having a decent argument. Rog and I had spent the last week to ourselves, not really doing anything besides playing around with Ivy or napping when we could. I think a trip out would do us both the world of good (despite the obviously triggering surroundings) and part of me hoped they'd ask so I wouldn't have to admit to eavesdropping on them.

"I know you're only thinking for the best Fred but it's got to be hard for them." I heard John sigh, feeling a little stab in my heart as everything suddenly flooded my mind again. It was hard, trying to know how to be now. I didn't know if I was meant to be sad or if I should just act like nothing happened since we didn't even know I was pregnant. Would people think we were being overdramatic by being upset over a baby we never even knew about? Would being happy all of a sudden look bad, like we didn't care? I just didn't know and it was beginning to eat me up a little inside if I was being honest. It hit me hard, having to hear that we could've had another baby if things took a different turn. I felt like this was my fault, no matter how many times Penny said it wasn't, I'd always believe it was. It was hard not to think that, especially when I solely was the one responsible for looking after our baby. How could I not think if was my fault that it was gone? Could I have done something more? Should I have done something less? I guess I'll never know. "We're just lucky we still have our little man." I heard him sigh again as I decided to join the conversation, pretending as though I was only now getting to the kitchen.

"Morning." I smiled the best I could, watching them snap out of their talk quickly, each turning to me with a (clearly) fake smile plastered on.

"Good morning lovey." Freddie greeted me back, the awkwardness in the air hovering as it had been the last week, nobody really knowing what to say. "How did you sleep?" He asked, picking up a cup of tea before taking a sip.

"As well as I could with a teething baby." I chuckled, wandering to the fridge for the milk to make my own tea. "That's something for you two to look forward to." I added, hoping that talking about babies would show that I was fine to go shopping. I needed an excuse to leave the house. I didn't want to be cooped up, wallowing in self pity anymore.

"Gee thanks Bri, can't wait for that!" John joked, the three of us laughing as I fished out a tea bag from the pot on the bench.

"We uh, we're actually heading out to pick up a few things for the baby today," Freddie started as I turned my back to fill the kettle. "would uh, would you and Rog like to come?" He finished, his stuttering only adding to the awkwardness as I heard John hush him quietly for asking. "Only if you feel up to it of course darling. No rush." He added quickly as I moved to face them both again.