Just Smile

CHAPTER FORTY FIVE

*Hi my loves! I'm so sorry this update has taken me a stupidly long amount of time to post but it's here nevertheless and I actually like this one 😂😂
I hope you guys enjoy it! 💕💕

ALSO!
I WENT TO SEE THE LADS WITH ADAM ON SATURDAY NIGHT IN SYDNEY AND WOW, WHAT A SHOW! IT WAS EPIC AND THEY SHOWED MY BBY FREDDIE AND I CRIED AND UGH, IT WAS AMAZING! 😭😭*

*JOHN'S POV*
How?! How could it be that wherever we went my mother just happened to be lurking in the fucking shadows?! I couldn't believe she was here! We came for bloody ice cream and now we're stuck here again, stuck facing her after what she's done.

"Your son?" The man questioned, looking between Mum and I as I felt Freddie's arms tighten around me more. I wasn't her son. I don't care what she said. I'm not her son, not anymore. "Oh shit! The John?!" He gasped as if he recognized my name, all eyes now locked on me as I suddenly found it hard to breathe. How did he know who I was?! Did she talk about me? Did she tell this stranger about me, about what she's done?

"You just have to be everywhere we go don't you?" Freddie scoffed, shaking his head as I tried to dig myself further into his arms, just trying to get away from all of this. I didn't understand why! Why me? Why us? Why can't we go anywhere in fucking peace anymore?! "Don't you ever get tired of chasing John around?" He muttered, the hate in his voice clear as I clenched my eyes closed, wishing I just ate the damn ice cream we had at home.

"We didn't chase anybody around Freddie, I'm here getting my food just like everybody else." Mum snapped, seeming to have enough of Fred's (justified) attitude towards her already. "We have a right to shop. I had no idea you both would be here. How would I know that?" She snarked, her "friend(?)" watching on as her and Freddie glared at one another, him clearly not understanding why things were so heated between the three of us.

"L-Let's just go Fred." I said softly, my eyes now opened as I shifted to look at him, his face telling me that he was thinking the same.

"I had no idea...I didn't even think..." The man mumbled, shaking his head as I shifted to take Freddie's hand in mine, wanting to quickly leave this mess and just get home.

"I know," Mum started before we could go anywhere, both of us quick to jump back from her as she took a step closer. "I know you don't want anything to do with me," She sighed, moving back as Freddie's grip tightened on my hand. "and I respect that John, really I do." She nodded. "I just, I wanted to say how proud of you I am." She said softly, my eyes widening as she finally looked at me. "I know I've not been the mother you deserve John. I know I've been despicable, disgusting, horrible, some would even say evil," She mumbled. "but I'm so, so proud of you, of how you've grown into yourself. You've changed so much in just a year." She smiled tearfully. "You've grown. You've grown into such a handsome young man and now you're going to be a father yourself." She sighed. "You're going to have a baby, a beautiful, beautiful little baby and I'm so proud of you!" She exclaimed, tears flowing down her cheeks. "T-That's all I wanted to say." She sniffled quietly, dropping her eyes as she moved further away from us, her words leaving me feeling a little emotional too as tears flooded my vision.

"She means that." The stranger spoke up, breaking the silence filling the air as he looked at me. "Your Mum, she's told me everything, everything about you and about your life before now." He explained, my insides instantly churning as I wondered if she really told him EVERYTHING about what she'd done, all about the torture she'd put me through.

"W-Who even are you?" I asked, not understanding who this strange person who suddenly knew all about my life was. He was giving me ice cream and now he apparently knew all about me! He didn't know me, he knew what she wanted him to know. The man sighed, his eyes flicking to meet Mum's as he took her hand in his, their fingers intertwining much like Freddie's and mine as she nodded at him.