wonderwall (Septiplier)

one

[sean's pov]

"I think they'll understand Sean, last time Phil replaced Wade so I'm sure they'll let you. Besides, it's not like you haven't been on my channel before." Mark laughed, I finished adjusting my camera and pulled my headphones over my hat and onto my head.

"I hope they don't mind, if not it'll be drunk minecraft featuring Mark and Bob." I joked. My phone lit up on my desk and I picked it up, swiping it to the right. I looked down at the message and sighed,

Klo  > Sean: I don't know Sean, i don't think we're doing well. You're always too busy with Youtube to talk to me and the time zones make it difficult to Skype. I don't know what to do anymore 😕

"Sean, dude, you there?" Mark called,

"Yeah, yeah. Just give me a sec." I muted my microphone and typed my response to Klo.

Sean > Klo : What do you mean you don't know? We've been making this long distance thing work for a so long, you can't just suddenly drop it all 😟

Klo > Sean: I can kind of agree, it has been working. But I just don't think it's working as well now. I think it might be time sean, I'm not sure I can deal with this any longer 😟

Sean > Klo: Please don't do this Klo, I'll take a break from Youtube. I'll fly out to see you and we can work this out, please 😔 you can't leave me like this, this isn't fair.

Klo > Sean: You can't use the 'it's not fair' trick on me sean, you not being there for me for the past few weeks hasn't been fair. We both know it's for the best, you go your way and I'll go mine.

I shook my head as tears filled my eyes, this could not be happening. After everything we'd been through.

Sean > Klo: think about what you're doing Klo, once it ends it ends 😟 Do you really want to just lose everything we have? I love you.

Klo > Sean: I love you too Sean but I can't keep doing this. I can't live a life where my boyfriend's too busy for me, I understand that you're in a different country but you never have time for me. I always get a little text with one word answers, never a 'hello, how are you doing? what did you do today? want to skype?'. We both need time to ourselves but sadly you've taken too much, I don't want to feel this alone anymore Sean. We can both be happy with different people OK?

I pulled the end of my hoody sleeve over my hand and wiped my eyes, surely this was all some sort of joke?

Sean > Klo: So what are you saying Klo, is this really it? are we really ending like this? 😓

Klo > Sean: Yes, goodbye Sean.

From then on there was no stopping the tears, I bit my lip as I scrolled back up through the texts shaking my head repeatedly. We weren't supposed to end like this, heck, we weren't supposed to end at all. I'd just lost somebody who meant the absolute world to me, all because I had no time.

"Sean, Sean are you still there?" Bob called out, I ignored him and wiped the tears from my eyes. My hands were now shaking and my heart was racing, please tell me this wasn't true. Please.

Sean > Klo: This can't be goodbye Klo, we can sort this.

Klo please 😔

You can't keep ignoring me Klo, I can't do this without you 😓

I love you, don't end it like this please. I need you.

Klo 😟

"Sean we're ready to start, are you?" I ripped my headphones off my head and threw them onto the desk alongside my phone, before removing my hat and running my hands through my hair. Tears were falling one after the other and I had no control of myself. I got out of my chair and slumped myself onto the floor, tucking my knees up to my chest and burying my head into my arms. I could not have lost Klo so easily, we'd been together for so long and I was already planning my next flight out to Korea. How could she think I didn't care? I always tried to fit time in for her, even on the busiest of days I would try and send her a message at least once. I can't believe I wasn't good enough. I can't believe it's over.