My life in Yokohama (Bsdxreader)

Chapter 71

I was done making some dinner , when Dazai came home . He seemed down .
- How did things go with Ango ?
- He accepted the terms and is getting Yosano's treatment. We get Kyouka back - he sighed .
- Would you want some dinner ?
- No - Dazai smiled and layed on the couch. I sat next to him .
- Do you want to talk ? - I asked quietly .
- Yes - Dazai replied - I do .
He sat up , and held my hand .His brown eyes seemed darker than usual , and that sadness of him was something I have never seen of him before .
- You know I was an executive at the Maffia right ?
- Yes. I know .
- Do you know why I left ?
- No , you never told me .
- I had two friends , both working for the Maffia as well . They were my only friends. We used to drink at this certain bar every night after work . I was eighteen at the time , four years with Mori and three years in the Maffia .
- You were fifteen when you joined ? - I was kinda shocked . He was just a child .
- Yes , I joined in search of something, some meaning , to this thing we call living . I thought being there , being around daily death will give me some reason .
- Did it ?
- No , of course not . But I was just a kid . I didn't know better. Violence and murder was all I knew . Up until I met a certain man . His name was Oda Sakunoske , I called him Odasaku , my best friend. Odasaku , he was a good person . The best one I have ever met . The kind that took care orphans , he never killed anyone in his time in the Maffia , he simply refused to do that . He was the strongest man I know , yet he worked only as a gofer , because he didn't believe in violence.
- He sounds like a nice guy - I gave Dazai a soft smile .
- He was . He really was . - He sighed - He died four years ago . The same day I left the Maffia .
- What happened?
- The Maffia was up against a dangerous organisation, The Mimic . Mori made a deal with the Government, the Maffia would get rid of the Mimic , and gain the permit .
- The skilled business permit ?
- Yes , Oda was set up by Mori , he knew that the Mimic will do whatever , and he used that . Odasaku took care of a few orphans , they killed them , in front of his eyes , while he wasn't able to help them . Mori knew that that's gonna happen , he also knew that my friend will go into fight , with the intention of killing the leader . He used that to manipulate Oda . Who went up against Andre Gide , he had a similar ability to him . He saw a few seconds into the future. However, in order to keep the Maffia intact , it had to be done in silence. I wanted to go help Oda . I knew he is going to die . But Mori didn't let me . That's when I decided to leave . I ran to Odasaku, but I was too late , he did take care of Gide and the Mimic , but he received a fatal wound .
- Dazai , I'm sorry , I - I brushed his palm with my thumb.
- Yeah , his dying words were : if you have to choose a side , choose the one that saves people. He knew I wouldn't find a reason to live in bloodshed , I might not find one in kindness either . But if I can choose , I choose to be kind and help people. He said it will make life a little more beautiful.
My tears started falling at this point . I didn't have any idea . I genuinely thought Dazai left the Port Maffia because he was bored . Or something like that . He never stroke me as someone that would carry out his dying friend's wish .
- Is it ? Do you find life a little more beautiful? - I asked , now crying .
- Yes , yes it is - he looked at me , and wiped down my tears with his free hand - don't cry now .
- I'm sorry , I'm just ... - he didn't let me finish , just pulled me into a hug .
- I'm gonna tell you about my other friend , and about today - Dazai said as we got out of the hug , and he went ahead , laid down and put his head back on my lap .
- My friend Ango , during the encounters with the Mimic , we found out that he was a government spy , he collected information on the Maffia , and the Mimic . His scheming almost got me killed . He betrayed us . Or so I felt . I haven't seen him since that day . Until today .
- You went to negotiate with the Government, you meant him ?
- Yess . I'm not gonna lie , at first I was mad when I saw him , but he is my friend in the end of the day . After the accident last week , something moved in me .
- I see , so seeing him brought back memories.
- Hm - Dazai nodded . I wanted to comfort him , so I stroked his hair - I'm glad this time things are working out well for all parties .
We just stayed like that for a while , the brunette told me some stories from his days with his friends . The times they drank all night at that bar . It's called Lupin .

I woke up to the smell of coffee .
- Huh ? What ? - I sat up in confusion, I was on the couch , covered in my blanket .
- Good morning my love - Dazai greeted me with a coffee . - Have you slept well ?
- I'm sorry , I fell asleep, you should have woke up so I would have gone to my bed .And you also shouldn't sleep on the couch .
- You seemed so peaceful. I didn't want to bother you .- and he handed my the mug .- Y/n , Thank you .
- Hm , what for ?
- For being here - he smiled and went to the bathroom.
I drank my coffee , and scrolled a bit on my phone , when Dazai came out of the bathroom I went in and got ready myself .