How To Stay Afloat (BxB)

Chapter 64: I've had it coming

Austin and I finish the movie and then cuddle and nap together. In the evening Austin leaves to go home.

When I come back to my room, Caleb is sitting on my chair, waiting for me.

"What now?" I ask him annoyed.

"So you decided not to tell him?" He asks me.

I shake my head. "No. I couldn't."

He nods his head. "Yeah, I get it."

"Am I a bad person?" I ask him and sit on my bed.

"For not telling him? No. For kissing someone else? Yeah." Caleb tells me.

"Just leave my room already." I demand.

He rolls his eyes and leans back in the chair, not showing any sign of planning on standing up anytime soon.

"Why are you already here? Didn't you hang out with Carla?" I ask him.

He shrugs. "Yeah, but I didn't wanna keep her from studying."

"She's studying? What is she- Shit!" I say as I remember the physics exam tomorrow.

Caleb laughs at my reaction and gets up to leave.

The rest of the evening I do my best to prepare for the exam.

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"-but she was like 'no, you can keep the plushie, I don't care.' Can you believe that?" Harry says to Carla.

It's the break before the last lesson and Harry is telling us all about his break up with his long distance girlfriend. Apparently they are still fighting.

The test was okay and the rest of the school day, too. But Austin didn't text back a lot all day and I'm worried. Adam obviously didn't text me anymore either. I told him I didn't wanna hang out anymore and that included texting. But I still kind of miss texting him.

Which is stupid and wrong. I made the worst mistake with Adam.

After the last lesson I go home to eat with my mom and Caleb and then she drives me to therapy.

"Did we break a window?" Adam texts me out of nowhere.

I smile and reply to him. "Not my fault, that was you."

"Shit." He texts me back.

I feel so bad, but getting a message from Adam really cheered me up.

Maybe I can tell my therapist all about my fuck ups.

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"Hi." I say as I walk into Meghan's office.

"Samuel. How are you?" She asks and guides me straight to the room where we'll sit and talk.

After a small talk we go straight to the session.

"So, Samuel." She says and scans her notes. "Last week you mentioned a video of you online. Do you want to talk about it?" She asks me.

"Oh right. No. It's actually not even important anymore. There's a video of me crying around while I was high on cocaine and really paranoid. A few people made fun of me, but I guess everyone's forgotten about it by now." I explain.

She nods. "So you don't think we need to talk about it?" She asks. "Is there anything else you'd like to discuss?"

I nod. "Yeah. I screwed up big time and I'm not sure what to do." I explain.

"Go ahead then." She says.

I tell her all about how Adam always picked on me and how we got into a fight. I show her the wound on my forehead and the bruise on my stomach while I'm at it. I tell her all about meeting up with Adam, expressing how I'm confused as to why I don't hate him. Lastly, I tell her about the cheating.