How To Stay Afloat (BxB)

Chapter 114: Things left unsaid will always come out

After hanging up the call with Kev I decide to settle things with Austin, too.

When I scroll through my contacts my eyes stay glued on Adam's name. Instead of calling Austin I call him.

I spin around in my chair as I wait for him to pick up his phone.

"The person you're trying to reach is currently ignoring your call. Press one if you want me to hit him to gain his attention." Dylan says.

"Oh hey." I say, surprised to hear him.

"Yo. What's up?" He asks me.

"Uhm. Not a lot. I wanted to talk to Adam." I say.

"Wow. Thanks. It's so nice to hear you, too." He says.

I chuckle. "How are you?" I ask him.

"Great. I heard you went missing for two or three days." He says.

"Uhm, yeah, did Adam tell you that?" I ask him.

"Who else would tell me?" He answers. But then where did Adam find out? "So? Where were you?"

"I met up with a friend." I explain.

"And why?" He asks me.

"I was hiding from my parents because I overheard them talk about putting me in a mental hospital." I tell him.

"Oh, okay?" He says unsure. "For rehab again?"

"Doesn't matter. They agreed to let me stay home." I say.

"Are you still doing drugs?" He asks me.

"No. I'm trying not to." I explain.

"Nice. Me too." He says. "I can already get a chip for ten days clean." He tells me proudly.

I smile. Dylan seems a lot more like the way he was before his relapse. He seems more mature and also friendlier.

"That's really awesome. It's just one day for me, but I'm getting there." I say.

"I believe in you." He says, making me smile.

"I'm gonna give the phone to Adam now so you two can talk. Bye" Dylan says. "No! You're talking this out! Take it. Fucking take it!" I can hear him say while Adam protests.

"What do you want?" Adam finally asks me.

"I wanted to talk to you. I realized how I've been acting really impulsive and selfish and I just wanted to apologize for that." I explain.

I can hear him groan annoyed. "Stop apologizing. I don't wanna forgive you." He says. "Let me hate you. It's easier."

I open my mouth, but close it again as I realize I don't know what to say.

Why is hating me easier?

"Why do you wanna hate me? What do you mean?" I ask confused.

"Man, are you so dumb or do you just act so stupid?" He asks me. "I told you I like you romantically. I can get over you fucker easier if I stay mad at you."

So he really meant what he said about liking me?

"But why? You were with Harry and now you have Dylan." I point out.

"Yeah. If I could I would stop feeling that way because you're an egoistic asshole." He says. "And you're really pathetic and annoying with all your crying and trauma bullshit and drugs."

"Fuck you. Do you know how annoying you are? You let nobody close to you and act like you don't care about anyone. That's also not nice. I bet your parents never hugged you." I blurt out before I can stop my words.