[1] Let It All Out (Vent/Reklamo)

Mabarkada Type

My husband kasi is a very mabarkada type of person. He can never say no. Once na mapakawalan or payagan or makatakas sya. He will make the most of it. Halos hndi na umuwi and surely seems to be last man standing s mga kabarkada nya. Which is the exact reason kaya hndi ko sya pnpyagan tlga mdalas na. Kasi wla sya limit everytime as in, he never ever fulfilled his promise like sa pag uwi ng tamang oras. Which is btw until 1am. For him kulang pa.

More to this story, I think, nasanay na lang ako na everytime sya tatakas. Aawayin ko nlng or recently hndi ko na pnapansin. Which I think mas masaya pa sya. Btw we're living in and married together for 12 years na. W/ 2 girls. 6y/o and 1y/o. Working Mom din ako and everyday exhausted ako since my baby is pure BF pa. Super clingy, as in kht sa yaya ayaw sumama once mkita ako. Mgtatago pa ako para mag cr. I know you know how it feels.. I have No other outlet/social life than my Family. Gala dito/dalaw sa kapamilya occasionally. Malling/travel with him and the kids nman.

Since feeling ko nman is manhid na ako on this. Ang main concern ko now is there will be a Team building on his Company, out of town. Overnight. I am scared and worried na payagan sya kasi I know his capacity. I know kung gaano sya kadali mag give way s vices. Not to mention babae/ we had issues with this before too pero we were still gf/bf that time but we're living together na nun ha! And yes, nagawa nya ko lokohin that time. But that is way back 10 years ago na. But still, nkakatakot lalo na may kids na.

Going back, papayagan ko ba sya? I mean it is not an option anymore n pala kasi mapilit tlga sya and I know ww3 pag pinigilan ko sya. Kasi nasanay n din sya na recently pnpbyaan ko n sya s mga pagtakas nya. Hndi ko na sya ni coconfront. And I just go with the flow. He gave me an option na sumama kami as a Family and mag rent kami ng sarilin namin room dun sa resort. But ung expenses are very huge almost 10k since sarili namin lahat. Not worth it for a 1night trip. Not to say pa na sbra mppgod ako s kids since puro disclaimer n sya na hnd dw nya kme ma focus since need nya mkisama and so on and so forth. He is also kinda boss n din pala. Newly promoted. Kaya mas lalo ako knkbhan since alam ntin mga ahas anjan lng yan basta may kapit lalo n sa bpo industry.

My only choices are

Payagan ko sya to go alone and make my full day worried coz I know super ako mag woworry and miserable until makauwi sya. (Note, hndi din sya ung tipo na mag uupdate or what, kaya nya umuwi at umalis n lang bgla. As in totally patayan lang ako ng cp.) But atlwast limited lng ang budget since ambag lng nya babayran.

Other option is sumama nlng kmi ng kids and ipikit ko nlng ang gagastusin ( mejo alangan me here kasi both of my kids will have their bdays coming in March) but I know this will make me ease my worries but wilm surely impact our budget.

Please help. I am so sorry sa long post. Wla lang tlga ako mpagsabihan. Tia

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