Trust me~ Elmax

Chapter 9: Pain

*Tw: Self-harm*

Max's pov

Lucas offered to get on his bike and take me home. I told him I could skate but he insisted so I agreed.

We then arrived. "thank you" I said smiling. He smiled back and waved as I got to my door. I looked at my watch.. Shit I was 5 minutes late..

I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. I was praying that Neil didn't get back from work or at least not be the one who opens the door. But it was him..

He glared at me and looked behind me. I turned around to see what he's looking at. It was lucas.. Apparently he didn't leave yet. He was probably waiting for me to get in before leaving. Which is cute but not good because of my family

He angrily grabbed me by my wrist hard and dragged me inside aggressively. I groaned as he slammed the door shut loudly making me flinch.

"Why the hell were you hanging out with that boy?" he yelled. "Cause-he's my friend-" I said. He slapped me, not letting me finish. "I don't want you hanging out with him again do you hear me?!" he yelled as he held me tightly making sure I don't escape

"W-why is it because of his skin color?" I said. He glared at me even more, then punched my Stomach. This is definitely going to leave a bruise. "Don't talk back to me!" he yelled. "you're late!! I told you to be back by 5 pm!" he yelled slapping me again

I glanced at my mom who appeared looking at the scene in fear and empathy. "mom!" I said. She did nothing.. But stare sadly. My heart broke

That made him more mad so he punched me on the rib making me groan in pain louder. "Neil could you please stop, she's only 5 minutes late-" my mom tried but Neil glared at her

"Don't get involved" he said angrily. My mom didn't say anything. "if I ever see you banging out with him again I will do worse" he said glaring at me. I didn't say anything, scared for my life

"He's don't nothing wrong-" I said. "I don't give a shit! He's a bad influence!!" he yelled punching my stomach again. He always punches parts of my body so it's not visible for people to see

Suddenly Neil grabbed his car keys aggressively and walked towards the door. "w-where are you going?" my mom asked shakily. "to the bar, that dumbass red head disgusting girl got on my nerves again!" he yelled

My heart broke once again. He then slammed the door. Billy aaa out with some girl again or something. I didn't say anything and just ran to my room

I knew that whatever I would tell my mom she won't listen. I locked my door, got on my bed, I curled up like a ball and started sobbing. Everywhere hurts, inside and out

I was so tired of him and Billy. My stomach, my ribs where he pi punched me with all his powers, my cheeks he slapped hard,they were still red. Sometimes he would slap me before going to school if I didn't wake up exactly when he woke me up that I had to wait a couple of minutes so my face isn't red anymore

I don't want people to know what I'm going through,it's pointless anyways. Maybe I deserve all this. I'm just a disgusting red head, a disgusting girl who dresses like a boy, play games for boys... A Dyke, that's what they call me. I'm not gay

I don't know why they keep calling me that, they assume I'm a Dyke cause of the way i dress etc. I just.. Hate myself.. I'm mean to almost everyone for absolutely no reason

I push people away, the boys for example. Why did react like that when they approached me? Sure it's because no one likes you but still. Maybe not everyone is bad but that's how I was treated

I've always not been a lot attracted to boys.. Why? No way! I'm not what they call me! I hate myself, I hate my step dad, i hate my step brother.

Maybe if I wore more girly/feminine clothes, none of this would have happened. Maybe people would actually talk to me without judging. Why am I like this?