Trust me~ Elmax

Chapter 31: Will And El

El's pov

*after leaving the cafe, in the car*

The party would come over tomorrow morning before we leave so we can say goodbyes etc. I really didn't want to leave..

After max and I almost kissed.. I think that's what we were going to do. I don't know why I wanted that to happen. Can girls kiss girls? I know that it's wrong

But why did I want to kiss her? My best friend who is a girl? We didn't exchange a word after that st the cafe. The boys were mostly talking unless they asked us questions etc

Will kept glancing at me at the cafe but I pretended I didn't notice. He asked me once but I just said that I was okay. It wasn't exactly a really bad feeling

I mostly felt guilty and so damn confused. I couldn't process what happened at that time. I could tell max was as well cause she was quiet too.

"so did you guys have fun?" Joyce asked us as she was driving us at home. "yeah" we both said. After a minute will tapped my arm as I turned to look at him

"you okay?" he whispered. I nodded. I looked back out the window but I could still feel him looking at me.

*later, at home*

Will and I decided to pack only our things tonight so we don't have to rush in the morning and stress out. The boys and max would come over at 9 am and we would leave at around 10-10:30 am

We asked if Jonathan, Nancy, Robin and Steve wanted to come as well and they agreed. I finished packing my stuff and sat on my bed thinking of what to do

I didn't really want to go to the living room to watch tv. I looked at the magazines and comics next to me. Most of them were Max's. She brought them here so we can read together like usually

I sighed at the thought of her and felt butterflies in my stomach. I grabbed one and started reading. "hey el?" I heard will saying. I looked up to see what he wanted.

He was shoving some clothes in a bag but turned around in order to look at me. "yeah?" I asked. He stared at me for a second before walking towards me

"what's going on?" he asked quietly sitting on the edge of the bed in front of me as I was sitting cross legged. "Nothing is going on?" I said acting like everything is fine. Which it was.. But at the same time it wasn't. Does that make sense? I don't know

"That's not nothing.. You've been acting weird ever since we stepped on the cafe and especially after you and max came back from the bathroom" he said.

"It's.. Cause we're leaving tomorrow" I lied. I was upset about that as well but I could use that as an excuse. I don't know, the moment lucas complimented max my mood changed

"What about after max? Something clearly happened and you both seemed really uncomfortable did you argue-" will said but I cut him off. "nothing happened will" I said raising my voice a little making will flinch slightly as so did I

"Sorry.." I apologised. "it's okay.. Just-we're sibling now and I want you to know that you can talk to me" he said softly. I could feel tears in my eyes. Should I tell him? Tell him what exactly el, I thought

"i-" I said but no words came out as a tear slipped. His face softened and looked worried. He sat closer to me and grabbed my hand

"it's okay, take your time" he said softly as I gulped and nodded. "I'm just-confused.." I said with tears running down my face.

"What do you mean?" he asked. I stared at him for a little not sure what to say. "I don't know how to say it.. I think max and I almost.. Kissed" I said more quietly afraid someone would hear out conversation

He smiled sadly. "in the bathroom? Today?" he asked. I nodded. "Oh" he said. "Why didn't you kiss?" he asked. "some lady walked in" I said. "oh" he said.

"I'm just.. So confused, like max is my best friend and.. A girl" I said looking down ashamed. "hey.. It's okay if you like max" he said squeezing my hand to comfort me

"I don't know how I feel.. I just know that it's not normal to feel this way towards my best friend especially a girl. I don't feel like that around Dustin or lucas. I feel so happy and this weird sensation in my stomach-" I said

"butterflies?" he asked. I nodded. "Is your heart racing fast whenever you hear her name or being near her?" he asked. I nodded as I cried more

"aww.." he said quietly. "that's what I-feel towards Mike too.. You have feelings for max el.. And it's totally okay" he said softly. "is it though? I think she hates me now.." I said trying not to sob

"No.. El she doesn't hate you, max would never hate you. And who knows. If you guys almost kissed it means that she might like you back" he said smiling slightly. I smiled a little to myself at the thought.

896 words. To be continued!
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