Trust me~ Elmax

Chapter 50: Billy

Max's pov

After lucas left I decided to watch some tv to clear my head but no distraction worked. I just couldn't stop thinking about el and certainly the letter. I should probably write back to her.. I thought

It's best I write back as soon as possible before she thinks I don't want to exchange letters with her. But what would I say? Lucas did give me some advice but still

I sighed knowing that avoiding it would be way worse since I couldn't stop thinking about it so I stood up from the couch. Billy was in his room, Neil and my mom were out on a date

Thank God, I thought. It was so peaceful without Neil. My mom was okay, Billy was the same. He was in his room, music blasting loud and probably working out as usual not caring about anyone but himself.

As long as he's not pissing me off or hitting me I'm fine with him doing all that. I'll live. I got used to it anyways. I stood up from my seat and walked into my room.

I sat down, grabbed the letter from my drawer and just stared at it trying to think of what to write. I finally gave in, grabbed a pen and started writing

The letter:

Hey el,
How are you? I really miss you too.. It's the same here, I'm like really bored, without you I feel lost.. I don't know if it sounds stupid but yeah, I have the boys I know but it's not the same, I wish you were here. Also, I'm not mad about what happened either and I agree it's best we talk in person about it. Anyways, thank you for writing to me I appreciate it!💗see you soon

I stared at the letter I wrote probably for the 10th time. Maybe I just remove the heart, I thought. Is it weird? Especially after what happened, or is it okay because technically we're best friends? I decided not to risk it so I removed the heart.

I folded the letter, put it into an envelope and stood up. I would walk to the post office since it was near. I could ask Billy but not only he would yell at me for it I didn't want to tell him the reason anyway

He already did make fun of me about the letter. When he snatched it from me for 'fun'. He would most likely forcefully take it from me again in order to read it

My mom and Neil told us not to go anywhere while they are gone. Of course Billy didn't listen. He went to a girls house for a little and then came back threating that if I tell Neil and mom he left as they were gone he would...well beat my ass,not ot surprised to be honest

I was about to leave until Billy unexpectedly appeared. "Where do you think you're going carrot?" he asked. "Nowhere" I replied, he laughed darkly.

"yeah sure, you just love to stare at the door sure" he mocked. The fact that he thinks he's funny though

"I was just going to a friend's house" I lied. I couldn't say that I would go skate because I didn't have my skateboard with me so he would notice. But I also hid the letter in my pocket

"Whose friend?" he asked. "Dustin's" I lied. I knew he would lose his shit if I told I would go to luca's house because he doesn't like him at all because of his skin color

"well, you're not allowed to" he smirked. "why not? You did" I dared to talk back. His smirk faded. That wasn't good, I thought.

"I'm older than you you little shithead did you forget?" he said. "My mom and Neil were referring to both of us" I said. He scoffed. "does it look like I give a fuck?" he laughed. "like I said, if you snitch I will beat your ass" he said angrily

"okay" I said simply. I would just ask my mom to get me to the post office tomorrow. She wouldn't ask many questions, or try to read unlike Billy. He wasn't really expecting that answer for some reason

He thought i would insist to the point of him beating me up again. Because he really enjoyed doing that. He gets to beat me up with every chance he gets, he likes it for some reason but I'm not a fucking punching bag! I'm a human too

As I walked past him he suddenly grabbed me by my shoulders harshly. My eyes widened in surprise and shock. I thought he would drop it since I agreed not to go but also not to snitch on him, to tell my mom and Neil tha the left

"where the fuck are you going?" he asked. "to my room? You told me not to go to my friend's house so I didn't! What did I do?" I asked trying not to show that I'm scared. He stated at me angrily but I could tell he was speechless. We both knew he had no reason to do that since I literally obeyed

"Whatever, go to your room, you stupid Dyke, you think you can talk back to me" he said angrily after punching my waist making me groan in pain. Great,another bruise for no reason, I thought

"why did you do that I literally didn't do anything-" I tried to say since I was in pain. He cut me off by slapping me. I gasped and then held my cheek as I stared at him in shock

I felt genuinely scared once again. I told myself that I would be brave and that I got used to their abuse but every time, it hurt again and again..

"shut the fuck up, just go to your room" he yelled at me, grabbing me forcefully by my wrists painfully making sure I won't 'escape'. I just nodded and he finally let go of me

Without second thought, I ran into my room. I couldn't help but cry again. Why am I so weak? Why am I crying again, it's not the first time happening I'm used it it why am I crying? I need el, I need my friends, I need el, I need El's hug so much

All those thoughts kept repeating in my head as I cried silently. What did I do to deserve all this pain? Am I that useless? I guess so..

1096 words. To be continued!
Hii, happy new year!! 🎉💗 Well in my country at least😭😂Wishing you a year with love, laughter and new adventures! But anyways I wanted to thank all of you for supporting my book in 2023 I appreciate it a lot!💗