Pit Stops (Book I-F1 Series)

Chapter Thirty-Nine

I woke up with something heavy on my waist and when i turned i saw Mick sleeping peacefully beside me. I looked at the window and saw that its still dark. Maybe i was intoxicated with all the drinks i had at the hospitality that when i came back here i just went to sleep.

I groaned as i sat up when i saw my phone lit up and i picked it up before going to the bathroom to pee. Its only 4:00AM, God why do i have to wake up this early.

When I finally went to the bathroom and turned on the light I saw that this is not my phone. Its Mick's. I was about to go back out when i saw a text from Lou again. And my heart just sunk right then and there. There was even a little red heart on it.

Lou: can't wait to see you ❤️

I started panicking as i felt my heart crumble by the second. I went out of the bathroom trying to stop myself from crying. As soon as i placed Mick's phone on the table i felt hot tears on my cheeks as i looked at him sleeping peacefully.

How can he do this to me? After all that I've done for him. After I've done everything he wants me to do? He'll just go behind my back with this girl?

I tried sleeping on the bed but i cant, i cant just make myself to do it. I can't make myself lie down beside him. I just cant after what I've seen. I went out of the bedroom and sat there on the couch looking at the windows overlooking the beach while its still dark.

I dont know how long ive been sitting there but I witnessed the sun rise, turning the dark skies to this majestic black with the hint of orange and yellow. I sat there hugging the throw pillow still thinking about that damn text.

I cant help but cry my eyes out as the sun shines through the window. How could he do this to me. Did i gave him too much freedom that's why he did this? Or i just didn't love him enough?

For years he's been on my mind. Years of trying to push him out, trying to fucking forget about him but when I saw him, all the walls that I've built for years after I left crumbled down because of that fucking eyes.

Maybe it's my fault after all that I let him in again. I did this to myself. I made a fool out of myself.

I chuckled as i dried the tears off of my eyes. I do deserve this shit thats been happening to me because of my choices, because i let him in, because i gave him the fucking chance. And to top it all off, we've only been dating for a month.

I didn't know that i fell asleep again until I felt someone lifting me out of the couch. I opened my eyes and gasped as i saw Mick carrying me from the couch to the bedroom.

"What are you doing?" I groaned as i still feel sleepy and my head is aching from all the crying.

"I want you on the bed." He simply said as soon as he puts me down, he joined me on the bed. He pulled me in closer in just a swift movement before cuddling his head on my neck which sent shivers down my spine.

I want to confront him, i want to let it all out, i want to scream and ask him who the hell is Lou. But i couldn't bring myself to. I just cant. I dont know what the hell is wrong with me but i cant.

"Are you going to the race with me?" He asked as i shook my head no. "Are you going with Collette and Janelle?" I shook my head again.

"Im staying. I don't feel like going." I faintly smiled as he pulled away. I looked at him, trying myself to gold back the tears again.

"Is this because of what i said yesterday?" He asked as he sat down in front of me. I just shook my head no. "Anne, please talk to me."

What will I say then? All i have are questions, questions that I don't want to hear the answers. Questions that i dont want to ask in the first place.