Lost Too Much 【REDONE】 ║ Daryl/OC or Shane/OC

Chapter 110: They need us.

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(13-055 AV --- 4,800 AV) It hasn't been a great day. I'm here in the Commonwealth right now. Unfortunately, it's not for good reasons. Clark's baby was born, for starters. She was born two days ago. However, bringing her into the world meant Alana sacrificed herself. She passed shortly after Julia was born.

Clark is a wreck. He's tired, emotional, all for good reasons. We've all been here in his apartment as much as possible, helping him with his daughter and making sure he's okay. It's just... not easy for any of us. Eddie has tried to be here for Clark, too, but he's just a kid.

Everyone's asleep right now, but I can't bring myself to do the same. I figured it might be a better use of my time to write another letter than to just stare at the wall trying to sleep. I've decided to write one that I've put off for a while now.

Dear Carl,

I can't believe it's taken me this long to write this. After everything we went through together, you probably deserved a letter from me the day you died. It just wasn't easy to think about you like this.

You got bitten rescuing Siddiq. I don't want to say it was worth it to lose you, but it was definitely honorable. You wanted to do the right thing. I wasn't home when it happened, and I want to believe I couldn't prevent it, but like always, a part of me thinks I could've saved you.

You were always there for me. I remember when you were still so small, us walking through the woods and talking about times before the fall. I feel like you always sort of trusted me. And I trusted you. You were the one person I always confided in when I was at my worst. I was never able to repay you for being my best friend at the prison.

There's something I think you'd love to know. Shane and I are finally together. It may have taken way too long, but it finally happened. I like to believe you'd still be rooting for us after all this time. You were certainly all for us getting together when you died, considering you wrote it in your letter to me. Even dying, you wanted to make sure we had each other. You should know that you were right, that I never stopped loving him.

We're taking care of Judith, too, and your new brother, RJ. We're all a family now. I know I promised you way back at the prison to take care of Judith, and I may not have been there for her much after that, but I'm trying to make up for it now. I have to admit, it's been mostly Shane and Daryl looking after her, but now, I think I'm gonna be around a lot more.

I hope you found peace, Carl. It was you who asked us to give Negan mercy, something I'm glad we chose to do. I may not have seen him in some time, but he turned out to be a great ally. You idea for our future was right. I just hope you're able to see that we tried to make your vision come true.

Rest in peace, Carl Grimes.

-CJ
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We were leaving any minute now. After a night of emotionally and mentally preparing, most of us were ready to head out on our most dangerous mission. This wasn't like going after the Reapers or even hunting down the Whisperers. Pamela had a community of thousands backing her. There was no telling what we were heading into.

We knew a few things for certain. Tyler Davis would be leading us to where he suspected the other kids were. We would be taking the Commonwealth's train back to make a quicker journey, driven by one of the prisoners who used to be an engineer. We knew getting the kids was the main priority, but many of us seemed to feel the same thing about Pamela --- she had to go.