TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF RAPE
(THIS WARNING IS ACTIVE FOR MOST CHAPTERS HERE ON OUT, BUT I'LL PUT REMINDERS OCCASIONALLY, JUST IN CASE)
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(DAY 631) I still haven't told anyone. I don't know if I'm ever going to say anything until it's too obvious to hide it. I don't know, I just don't believe there's any good that will come out of me announcing it to the group. My lower back hurts so much lately and the stretch marks on my stomach are multiplying. My feet and hands are also swollen, but I'm hoping no one notices. The baby's been kicking a lot and it's hard not to react when I'm around other people. I've really been craving chocolate, too, but there's not much to do about that.
I feel like I should have said something about being pregnant by now, being that it's been about five months now. I know I should have said something, especially in case something were to happen. I just haven't figured out a way to tell anyone what happened. I don't even want to imagine what Daryl's reaction will be. The second he hears I'm pregnant, we're gonna have a lot of talking to do. I know he'll remember quickly that he and I never had sex.
Maybe I should at least tell one person. Just one for starters, see how it goes and then move from there. I don't want it to be a huge deal right now because of what happened last time I was pregnant. Miscarriages aren't as common at this point, but I really wouldn't like to excite anyone with the idea of another kid and then lose it again. Clark said it himself, I wasn't good enough to keep the first one alive. Who knows what'll happen at this point?
I'm also really afraid that people are gonna feel pity for me because of the whole situation. Not being pregnant, but because of how it happened. That's why I'll start with one person, tell them and see what the reaction is, see if they start shaming me or confirming that it was my own fault, and then we'll go from there. Maybe I'll talk to Rick when he gets back from his run.
Signing out,
Cory Jenner
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After shutting my journal and setting it on the table I had in my room, I double-checked that my bump was still hidden under my black hoodie and walked downstairs, unsure what my plan for the day was. I knew Rick wasn't here, so I had time to spare before anything went down. I just didn't know what to do with that time.
Down in the main room, Merle was sat at the table, talking to Tyreese. The two were in depth about some topic that I wasn't quite sure of. I sat down beside Merle, joining in.
"What are you two talkin' about?" I asked.
"The best strategy for Poker," Tyreese said casually as if it weren't a weird topic to be discussing these days.
"Yeah," Merle confirmed. "Learnin' some tips for keeping a straight face."
I narrowed my eyes at him jokingly. "I don't think you need any tips. Apparently, you've cheated at Monopoly every time we've played and looked me right in the eyes and lied about it."
Hearing the accusation, Merle burst out laughing, nodding his head wildly. "Yeah, I did."
I glared another time, shaking my head. "You're lucky we've never battled it out in Uno. I'd 'a kicked your ass."
"Well, yeah. Daryl and I never played Uno before."
"No, but Daryl played with me," I told him, recalling that we hadn't mentioned the event to him when it happened.
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Lost Too Much 【REDONE】 ║ Daryl/OC or Shane/OC
FanfictionShe never had much in her life that gave her a reason to care. High school sucked, but her family sucked more. Cory was alone in her world until she met Daryl and Merle. After that, she basically became the third Dixon. They were inseparable, of cou...
