Lost Too Much 【REDONE】 ║ Daryl/OC or Shane/OC

Chapter 4: When have any of us had that type of luck?

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(DAY 197) Welp. CDC was a bust. My last entry was from 2 days ago, the morning after we got in. It didn't last very long. In fact, we left that same day. It turned out Dr. Jenner wasn't really into trying to survive, so he and Jacqui sat inside the CDC while it exploded from 'fuel-air explosives'. Andrea and Dale just barely made it out. And I think Daryl thought I was going to try to stay because he practically dragged me out with him and we argued the whole time.

After we left the CDC and it exploded and all, I rode with Shane. I'm still riding with him in this exact moment, actually. We've been on the same highway for 45 minutes. He hasn't questioned what I'm writing yet, and he probably won't. We aren't exactly the closest of friends. Rick decided we were driving buddies and run buddies for the meantime until we find a place to stay. Shane and I haven't said much to each other, other than small talk and him asking about ten minutes ago why Daryl and I were arguing on our way out before the CDC explosion. I asked how much he heard, and he said he didn't hear much, just Daryl saying I was wasting time. I told him that Daryl didn't want to have the guilt on my chest if I stayed and died. To that, Shane said:

"Did you consider staying?"

And I told him (rather sassily might I just say), "It wasn't a bad idea, but I didn't want to die yet, so no."

He laughed, which I could've sworn was real, and said back something like: "I'll be honest with you, and I'd never admit this to anyone, but we may have missed an opportunity to get out of this in the easiest way we could. The doctor was right. It would be simpler to just wait for that explosion than try to keep living."

I was surprised to hear that from him of all people. He was the one most upset by us being locked in. So I said back: "Did you consider staying?"

He caught on that I repeated his question, and answered with a similar answer to mine, "It would've been easier, but I have to keep trying." So I asked why, and all he said was, "It was never in my nature to look like the weak guy."

He never questioned if Daryl and I knew each other, though, so I call that conversation a win on my part. Anyways, to sum up the two days... I got stuck in this jeep with Shane, we all stopped a couple places for supplies and gas, and eventually, Daryl traded his truck for the motorcycle he had in the back. It was Merle's. Speaking of, I never figured out what happened to him. I'm afraid to ask Daryl, and I can't ask anyone else without it getting out that I know Daryl better than they do. So I'm sticking to living in the dark rather than questioning.

Last night, we all went through a building and slept in it. Sophia was really freaking out, and Daryl pretty much told her to shut up. The look on Carol's face must've really gotten to him because I actually saw some sort of guilt afterward. The next day/today, AKA two days after we left the CDC, we've been driving most of the day. We stopped in a neighborhood of houses, which was when Shane and I got paired up. We went in pairs of two through each house to take out geeks and grab supplies. I then learned that they refer to the zombies as 'walkers', so there's a new term. Now we're just driving. We don't know where we're heading, but we'll find someplace to stay eventually.

Shane just asked what I'm writing and I almost responded with "None of your business, Sparky!" until I remembered that he hasn't been an asshole to me recently. I asked for a second to finish writing so I can converse with him like a normal human.

Signing out,
Corynn Elaine August (Jenner)
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I shut the journal and threw it into the backseat casually. Shane glanced away from the road for a second to look at me with an amused smirk.