Lost Too Much 【REDONE】 ║ Daryl/OC or Shane/OC

Chapter 66: I gotta be strong right now.

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(DAY 127) Okay, Phillip is perfectly fine. The guy has zero worries about the baby, which may be because I haven't really expressed my unsureness about it to him. I don't want to. I know I'm not aborting, but I haven't figured out a plan for after its born.

The doctor gave me the idea of doing a blood test to check for down syndrome. Of course, right now I'm only around 5 weeks (though I'm not 100 percent because we don't know the day the baby was conceived), so we have to wait a little while to do it, but she said that she received accurate results from testing blood during as early as 7 weeks, so we scheduled an appointment for exactly two weeks from now. She also said that it would take a while to get results, but she wanted to test anyway since chromosomal abnormalities are more likely for a woman 35 or older. I'm only 33, but she wants to stay cautious.

She mentioned that she may get to know the gender from the test and asked if I wanted to know when she got the results. I'm still deciding that as well, but I haven't even told Phillip that I'm scheduled to get tested so I haven't asked his opinion. I've been thinking a lot about how I'd feel if the baby was born with a disability or mutation. I wouldn't stop loving it because of something like that, but I do know a child with a disability is harder to keep well than one without, and I haven't even decided yet what I'd do if the baby was born at all. I just don't know.

The doctor also talked to me about the case of a miscarriage. She described it to me as heavy bleeding and period-like cramps, and that if there was even the slightest bit of blood in my underwear at any point during my pregnancy to come and see her. She explained that if my child were to die inside of me, it would turn into a biter and kill me from the inside out, so they'd have to quickly remove it before it could do so. That just makes me really wonder if going through with it is a good idea, but I've already decided to do so.

I'm gonna take a nap, I guess. I've been way too overwhelmed all day.

Signing out,
Corynn Elaine August (Jenner)
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In the middle of the woods, at some point in the morning or maybe even early afternoon, a lump sum of us sat around. Those of us that had been in the sewers last night took off for Hilltop at the first crack of light, but we were taking a break now. People were tired of walking non-stop.

Daryl, Rosita, and Tara examined a map together, trying to decide which route we'd take to get to Hilltop. I wasn't exactly sure what was going on or why we had to re-evaluate the situation, but I decided against sticking my nose in it. I really didn't have much energy for getting involved with decision-making at the moment.

"If they're smart, they'll cover all these passes between here and Hilltop," Daryl suggested, pointing to the ones he meant on the map. Rosita nodded.

"We have to keep moving. We'll just have to risk it."

Hearing this, the uncertainty of our upcoming journey, Dwight stepped forward to insert his opinion.

"Maybe you don't have to. Negan won't send his people down into this stretch of swamp," he stated, pointing to a specific area on the map. "Not if he doesn't have to."

I feared Dwight speaking up. He wasn't a fan favorite with the people present, specifically Rosita, Daryl, and Tara, with who he pretty much had personal issues with. He seemed to genuinely want to help, though.

"Yeah? How do you know that?" Tara challenged.

"Negan wanted to map the best routes with cover from the Sanctuary to the Hilltop. He..." Dwight hesitated before continuing. "He decided the swamp was too dangerous. Didn't think it was worth the risk."