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Unreachable love

I love you.
I never meant to. I never wanted to fall in love with you. You're unreachable. I know we'll never have a chance to end up together.

But I love you.
We're like strangers. You don't know anything about me, I don't know much about you. But when I saw you for the first time, my heart whispered: „She's the one.“
I tried not to listen to it. I didn't want this to be true. I never wanted to fall in love with you. I've learned from the past that loving someone who doesn't love you back is the most stupid and hopeless and hurting thing you can do. But it didn't feel like this anytime before when I fell in love. Nobody ever seemed to be this perfect.

I know we'll never end up together. I don't even know whether you like me. I wish. I wish on everything I have that you'll like me once you get to know me really. But I also know that this is never going to happen - you're perfect, and that's the reason you're absolutely unreachable. I don't think you ever even noticed me really – especially not in the way I noticed you.

I will never tell you all this. I would be to afraid to get a rejection – and I know I would get one if I told you how I‘m feeling.

Of course I’d want to end up with you. I want to feel your love, I want you to love me. But I'd never force your love. Even if this was the only way to be loved by you.

I don't hope for losing my feelings since I know I will never be able to. You'll always be perfect in my eyes. But at least I hope that you‘ll stay the way you are, even if it hurts to see you like this while knowing I'll never even be friends with this perfect person.