My Rockstar's World

Chapter 63

"Want to take one more shot, and then I'll order the Uber?" I ask loudly over the music that's playing.

"Yes, please!" Iris says enthusiastically.

Kennedy shrugs. "Sure."

I'm not sure what is up with Kennedy tonight. She's been acting all weird since we left dinner last night. Maybe she's actually freaking out about the prospective of becoming a full nurse and not letting us know. I wish she'd just talk to me, but she kept reassuring me that nothing is going on and to not bug her about nothing.

Doesn't seem like nothing.

Hopefully it's nothing that a few drinks and a fun night can't fix.

We take our shots, and Iris quickly goes to the bathroom. Kennedy turns off the music and zips up her purse.

"Are you sure everything is okay? You've been acting off today," I ask Kennedy one more time before we head out.

"I'm sure," Kennedy says sharply. I hardly ever see her irritated. She exhales. "Sorry, I'm just... it's nothing."

"You can tell me," I say stepping towards her. "Bawdy isn't going on for a bit. We have time if you want to talk about something."

"It sounds shallow." Kennedy says while taking a step away from me. The shots are already getting to me, and I definitely stepped too closely inside Kennedy's personal space. "I'm so happy that you're doing the study abroad, but you seemed to stop caring about me getting my position when you found out. Even Iris couldn't stop talking about you and Bawdy. You and Bawdy this. You and Bawdy that."

"Oh, Kennedy," I start to say. She really should have brought this up when I could fully form coherent thoughts. "You can have any guy that you want. I don't want you to be jealous."

She rolls her eyes slightly. "I'm not jealous. I can't believe you'd think that. You're thinking about him so much you can't even tell what's wrong." Well, now I feel like a shitty friend. "It's just that you couldn't go five seconds without bringing him up at dinner last night. It just started getting annoying. I want you to be happy, but I saw first-hand how badly he hurt you already."

I know I think about Bawdy a lot, but do I really talk about him that much? I try to think back to last night's dinner.

I guess I did bring him up a lot. And I did keep changing the conversation from Kennedy's future to mine, specifically relating to Bawdy.

Last night was supposed to be about Kennedy, and I made it all about me.

"I'm so sorry," I say, truly meaning it. This is why I need Kennedy in my life. She keeps me in check more than anyone else in the world. "I didn't realize what I was doing. I really appreciate you looking out for me. I won't bring him up if you don't want."

I do appreciate her caring about me, but I know what I'm getting into with Bawdy. He's different this time. He has really let me in. It's his first time truly loving someone, and it's not always an easy path when it's foreign.

"Obviously it's fine to talk about him," Kennedy says before cracking a small laugh. "Last night I was talking about an extra medical certification I'll be doing over summer, and you used that to talk about Bawdy's medicine cabinet."

"Stop it. I did not," I say realizing how fucking annoying I must be sometimes.

"I can't make this shit up."

"Forgive me?"

"Of course, babe." Kennedy says and leans in to give me a hug.

The best of friends can get annoyed with each other but will always find forgiveness if they're really your best friend. I'd never want to lose Kennedy's friendship over some guy. Even if that guy is the most perfect human to ever step foot on this planet.

"Uber will be here in three minutes!" Iris shouts, running out of my room from the bathroom.