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Broken Hearted pt2 »» Jay Halstead

One year later

There's a yawn escaping my lips while packing up my bag to head home. It's been a long shift at the hospital and I'm ready for bed. I've been working overtime lately and it's making me really tired. Maggie gives me a warm smile and wishes me a goodnight when she sees me leaving. Turning to face her I return the smile and say goodnight.

On the way to my car, my phone buzzes with a message. It's from Jay and he's asking if we can meet at Mollys for a drink. He says that he wants to talk. Sighing, I climb into the car and head to the bar. Last year after Jay and myself broke up, I was in a dark place but ever since I decided to do better with my life, things have been different.

We still haven't gotten back together but our friendship has gotten better. He always texts me every so often to check in on me and see how I'm doing. As much as the breakup hurt me, he is still a kind person.

When getting there, I head inside and find him at a booth alone. Giving him a smile, I join him at the table. "Your message seemed kind of urgent." I say.

"It kind of was," he starts and I nod for him to continue. "Listen it's about our breakup and the real reason I had to end things with you." He tells me. I frown confused.

"You told me that you didn't see a future between us."

"That was a lie. It's been killing me...making me feel guilty you don't know the real reason. The truth is, I had to go undercover and it was too dangerous. If they would have found out that you were my girlfriend, they could have hurt you or worse." He admits to me.

It all made sense but him breaking up with me instead of talking about it, angered me. I take in a deep breath and decide not to get mad. It really wouldn't fix anything. He noticed my silence and begin to worry. "You could have talked to me." I assured him.

"I know and I'm sorry but now that everything has been handled, I wanted you to know. This isn't me asking to get back together but...I'd like to remain friends." He says. It's just a lot for me to process right now. It upsets me that he made the decision for both of us to break up. He knows that he can come to me for anything.

"Jay, I don't want to lose you as a friend but I'm going to need some time to think about all this."

"Take all the time you need. I still love you y/n." He reassures me. That brought a familiar pain to my chest as I muster up a smile.

"I love you too." I reply. I feel like no matter what happens between us, we're always going to love each other. I can't speak for him but Jay will always have a special place in my heart.

"I'll walk you to your car." He says. I nod and we pay the bill before leaving. Once getting to my car he leaves a kiss on my cheek, making me blush. I'm actually glad it's dark outside and he can't see me blushing right now. "Goodnight y/n."

"Goodnight Jay." I smile then climb into the car. That's kind of where we ended things for a few days. It gave me some time to think before telling him that I'd like to take things slow this time...not rush into another relationship. But I made him promise me that if something like this happens again, he'd come to me first. He agreed and was happy to take things slow.

At the end of the day, neither one of us want to lose each other. The love I have for him is different than any other love I've ever felt.